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ldrosophila

37 years old
Female
Alabama Hills, CA
"Oh boy! It's going to be a LOOONNNGGG journey, but I'm NEVER turning back. I battle everyday and pray to come out victorious."

About Me:

I'm going to try losing weight again, and hopefully I wont fail again. I'm using MFP to hold myself accountable. What was once hidden and a dirty little secret will be exposed. I will not ever accept weighing 300lbs or more, AGAIN! Nursing right now so goals reflect those nutritional needs.

What I'm learning about health and fitness:
1. Weight loss can help improve fertility. As a colleague once said to me what better excuse do I need to lose weight?
2. Why hurt my body with a binge when it made such a beautiful son?


12/1/16 40th Birthday Goal: Weigh 160lbs BMI 23
1/1/14 Goal: Make a healthy baby, maintain wt 320lbs-completed
1/1/15 Goal: Weigh <250lbs
Fitness Goal 1: Do a Pull Up
Fitness Goal 2: Do a Sit Up
Fitness Goal 3: Do a real Push Up
Fitness Goal 4: Run a mile
Fitness Goal 5: Complete the Baby Muddler level
http://toughmudder.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/03/mudderling-boot-camp.pdf
Goal A: Complete 80 Day Weight Loss Challenge (on 4/17/13) and rewarded with VS perfume and samples.
Goal 7: 280lbs
Goal 6: 290lbs (on 1/12/14) and rewarded with Samsara perfume
Goal 5: 299lbs (on 2/24/13) (gained back 4/14/13) and rewarded with Pandora Babushka charm and ear piercing
Goal 4: 310lbs (on 9/17/12) (again on 12/30/12) and rewarded with copper pepper grinder (gained back 10/22/12) (gained back 12/10/12)
Goal 3: 320lbs and rewarded with copper salt grinder (on 7/16/12) (gained back 7/23/12) (again on 7/30/12) (gained back 11/6/12) (again on 11/12/12)
Goal 2: 330lbs and rewarded with clothes and accessories for EDC (on 5/7/12) (gained back 5/21) (again on 5/29/12) (gained back 6/11) (again on 6/24)
Goal 1: 340lbs and rewarded with nail polish (on 4/2/12)
Sign Up MFP: 344lbs (on 2/13/12)
Start Weight: 365lbs (possibly 370lbs)

Why I want to get in shape

I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of worrying if I'll fit into a plane seat. I don't like the way my knees hurt. I want to carry a healthy baby to term.
Responsibility, discipline, and love. I'm doing this for myself! I want to be better. I want to run a mile and dance all night!

"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on or blame. The give is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins." ~ Bob Moawad
"I may not be there yet,but I'm closer than I was yesterday! "
"A year from now,you'll wish you had made that change today!"
"Try-Fail,Try again-fail, Try again-fail, Try again-fail, Try again-SUCCEED! "
If you're tired of starting over, quit giving up.
"Today is another chance to make yourself proud. "
"It's not that some people have willpower and others don't, it's that some people are ready for a change."
"What doesn't challenge us doesn't change us."
"Have a little faith that what your doing is working!"
"The ones who succeed are the ones that weren't lying when they said they wanted it."
"Keep moving foward, and never turn back."
"Not until we are lost do we begin to find ourselves"
"There is never a majestic mountain without a deep valley, and there is no birth without pain"
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
"I dont...(insert wrong choice here)"
"To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself."
"Suffer the pain of discipline or suffer the pain of regret"
"Am I eating to nourish my body or feed my addiction?"
"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit"
"dont let your dreams be dreams"
“Don’t wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.” ~Mark Victor Hansen~
To be posted on the refridgerator: "Whatever you are looking for, it's not in here"
Without hope there is no recovery
Celebrate life it's really all we have
Strength is the result of the struggle
The challenge?
......Faith, Patience, Commitment and Consistency:
......Build the bond.

The secret?
......Faith, Patience, Commitment and Consistency:
......What you give will return to you hundredfold.

The result?
......Faith, Patience, Commitment and Consistency:
......A lifetime of trust, adventure and together-love with the best friend you ever had.
FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT!.
I love myself. I am doing this all for me. Everything I do is for me I am going to look better and feel better for me. I want to look in the mirror and be attracted to the reflection I see staring back.
I'm so hungry I could even just eat vegetables? If the answer is No you arent truly hungry.
"To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don't need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself"
Discipline and habit that hold the keys to not only losing weight or getting strong, but to anything that we want in life. The big picture is always to eat real food in appropriate quantity and move in a manner that is continually challenging. The problem is not lack of knowledge or lack of motivation. The problem is lack of decision.
It's A Wonderful Life meaning. “We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."
I am not wasting any more time.
I will be a maintainer, and that is the ultimate success story.
"If you focus on results you will never change. If you focus on change, you will get results."
Is this food/binge/time on couch vs. excercise /ect. worth more to me than reaching my goal or having a lifetime of fitness and health?
A huge part of losing weight is believing that you can do it and realizing that it won't happen overnight.
Which feeling will be worse saying No and feeling deprivation or saying Yes and feeling guilt?
"Never give up on a dream because of the time that it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway." Earl Nightingale
The reason your feet hurt is because you're kicking so much ass.
Quit f_cking around Loraine!
No one really cares if I succeed or fail but me.
Stop mourning the person I was and to welcome the person I have become.
Weight loss is very much a head game as much as it is a physical job.
As soon as I embraced my failures I started to succeed.
"Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat."
Drown it with water. I need to drown my cravings. Craving carbs drown the carbs with water. Craving a binge? Drown it. Craving fat? Drown it. Sad and want to binge? Drown the sadness drown the anger drown the self loathing.
Father, I thank you for accepting me just as I am. I may not be perfect, but you know at least I'm trying my best and I'm going out today with my head held high, knowing that you are in the process of changing me.
Curiosity killed the cat. Dont know if I could live the rest of my life not knowing what would have happend if I had continued down the road to health. So the reason for me now to keep going is because I would hate never knowing what would have happened if I didnt take that initiative to move. for better or for worse who knows what the future holds. If I stay in bed and eat the windows close and the oppourtunities become small.
"I die daily".... 1 Corinthians 15:31
“Ninety-nine percent of the failures come from people who have the habit of making excuses.” ~George Washington
"Every success begins with the decision to try."
Challenge your insecurities, fear, laziness, poor self-esteem, hopelessness, and excuses on a daily basis.
Eat until you are no longer hungry not until you are full.
"Watch your thoughts, they become words. Watch your words, they become actions. Watch your actions, they become habits. Watch your habits, they become character. Watch your character, it becomes your destiny." -Frank Outlaw
"Excuses are tools of the incompetent." ---- Mike Tomlin
Julia Child's Quotes:
“The only real stumbling block is fear of failure. In cooking you’ve got to have a what-the-hell attitude.”
“Drama is very important in life: You have to come on with a bang. You never want to go out with a whimper."
“I don't believe in twisting yourself into knots of excuses and explanations over the food you make. When one's hostess starts in with self-deprecations such as "Oh, I don't know how to cook...," or "Poor little me...," or "This may taste awful...," it is so dreadful to have to reassure her that everything is delicious and fine, whether it is or not. Besides, such admissions only draw attention to one's shortcomings (or self-perceived shortcomings), and make the other person think, "Yes, you're right, this really is an awful meal!" Maybe the cat has fallen into the stew, or the lettuce has frozen, or the cake has collapsed -- eh bien, tant pis! Usually one's cooking is better than one thinks it is. And if the food is truly vile, as my ersatz eggs Florentine surely were, then the cook must simply grit her teeth and bear it with a smile -- and learn from her mistakes.”
“Find something you're passionate about and keep tremendously interested in it.”
“You'll never know everything about anything, especially something you love.”
“This is my invariable advice to people: Learn how to cook- try new recipes, learn from your mistakes, be fearless, and above all have fun!”
“Life itself is the proper binge.”
“...no one is born a great cook, one learns by doing.”
“Remember, 'No one's more important than people'! In other words, friendship is the most important thing--not career or housework, or one's fatigue--and it needs to be tended and nurtured.”
“I was 32 when I started cooking; up until then, I just ate”
“Always start out with a larger pot than what you think you need.
“Upon reflection, I decided I had three main weaknesses: I was confused (evidenced by a lack of facts, an inability to coordinate my thoughts, and an inability to verbalize my ideas); I had a lack of confidence, which cause me to back down from forcefully stated positions; and I was overly emotional at the expense of careful, 'scientific' though. I was thirty-seven years old and still discovering who I was.”
“Just speak very loudly and quickly, and state your position with utter conviction, as the French do, and you'll have a marvelous time!”
“...small helpings, no seconds, no snacking, and a little bit of everything. "
"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up." ~Thomas Edison
"The body serves the mind. If you have a powerful mind, you can impose your will over your natural capacities. With your mind, you can just about do the impossible. You can become a different breed of human being." - Dr. Judd Biasiotto, Sports Psychologist, Powerlifter
Nana-korobi Ya-oki 七転び八起き
"Seven falls, eight getting up."
"A smooth sea never made a skillful sailor."
"This lifestyle isn't for the thin skinned"
"Comparison is the theif of joy"
"Your WHY has to be bigger than your excuses"

My Inspirations

  • 40 is lurking around the corner
  • It's time I'm ready for change and to finally feel self acceptance
  • My son needs a healthy Mama
  • My love of dance and to one day be able to stand on my feet and dance all night!

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