How the Hell Do I Know?
The real question is how do we complete this journey?
Are we supposed to die fit? If were not, when is OK to give up exercising and eating healthy? I am really asking myself these questions. It's been one hell of a journey since February of 2011. A lot of people know my story. Running on the treadmill one day in ICU 2 days later with congestive heart failure. On the flip-side I have had some great success as a runner too - for one my age anyway.
It doesn't really feel like my life.
It's hard to explain how bad I feel because I haven't run in 3 weeks. Actually it's been pretty close to 8 weeks since the Boston Marathon. I did manage to fit in a 60 mile run across Massachusetts on a weekend. I also gained about 10 pounds.
The weight loss journey is as hard as it ever was!
It's the same old story. A few cheat meals, forget to watch portions, a whole package of cookies in the house, and melanoma surgery which kept me from running. People said I should be good to myself, it's OK you have cancer - it's not working! 10 hard fought pounds came back!
My new clothes don't really fit well. *sigh*
I am back to logging. I have had one run, a 5K in 30 minutes. I know that I have a surgery again in 4 weeks, but I have to do this now. I have to run!
When I gained 5 pounds I said to myself it's not a big deal, I will lose later. So now that it's 10 what should I say to myself? Did I cut myself some slack? I don't see any other way to stop the downward spiral but doing anything other than logging. I can run, and I even have another marathon in a month!
I have put together a few days of logging, tossed the cookies that were left on the table and got in one 3 mile run. That is what I know how to do.
Thanks for listening!
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