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Do you remember when you first thought about losing weight? I was very obese weighing in at just about 300 pounds. I am 6' 1" but, according to my cardiologist, I should be closer to 190.

And this is why BMI is BS. ;)

I have a picture that was taken when I was 33. I looked great in that image! I stopped looking in the mirror after 41 years. I even shaved in the shower. I always had that skinny me pic as a fantasy. I still do. When I did look in the mirror, I was depressed. I had more than let myself go.

I really wanted to be thin, so I got to work.

I lost 20 or so pounds pretty quickly. I dreamt of running. I started the Couch to 5k program. Then I had congestive heart failure. That set me back.

I didn't quit.

I kept on working out, eating less, and running. As I started to feel better, I also started to look better. My self-image was changing. It was an important step to accept where I was while I worked for a future goal.

I had never really examined my self-created body image.

Speaking of body images, I had to get up at 5:30 to be at the MRI center for 6:30. My priorities were coffee, food so I could take my pain medication, and well, not wearing anything metal. This was MRI number 6. I know the drill.

It's not that I'm going for a record, but if I was, I am off to a good start.

It's warm here today, and it was flip-flops, a t-shirt, and gym shorts. There is something wonderful about being able to go around in public wearing your PJs. Just one layer away from the bed.

I was slid into the imaging machine like an .

I don't really like the tube. I close my eyes, listen to all the buzzing and clanking, and try not to hold my breath. They clamped my head in something like an S&M mask.

It was white and not black. No studs.

They put the whip in my hand (emergency buzzer) and left the room. I tried to fantasize about something other being stuck in an elephant rectum. Is this what it feels like to be an earthquake victim?

OMG, I have an itch!

I start praying and 30 seconds in, I am pretty sure God is mad at me for something, I mean here I am in a tomb thinking about S&M.


Ahhh, images of my wedding to Ruth.

The beach. Click, bang, buzz. Now I am pretty much terrorized. It sounds like GANGNAM STYLE! "Oh, God!" I cried out.

"Are you OK?" came the voice from the tube.

"Just fine, sir. I feel good about myself"

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18 comments:

kendallvon wrote 3 months ago:
As a frequent flier in MRI tubes, I understand. 2 things I am thankful for now: 1.I have lost enough weight that I don't adhere to the entire opening and 2. Our local MRI places give you headphones with music piped in. They let you pick the radio station! I wish you the best with your test results.
~ Von
Rosie5151 wrote 3 months ago:
Lord, I felt your angst just reading your blog ! I can't do MRI's. I've had to many to count and for some reason my body... no, my mind has given up on them! I lay there and as the table gives you that ride to the "elephant" rectum ( I will never look at it differently again!) thank you! lol) my body goes tight and my mind races to death. And then thats it. I'm out of there, running to put some clothes on , gown flopping in the breeze behind me literally. So they have to search for open MRI machines which are hard to come by.

I feel it... EEK!

I hope for you that soon you won't need that damn machine or that damn contraption on your head!

Btw. I am obese. My doc tells me all the time, lose it. I did and then the regain but I still come to MFP , I still read and I still want to lose it, and I will.

I have so much faith this isn't the body I was meant to be in. I just am in the pity party mode now . Soon...

Thanks for the read
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Am Laura Mildred by name, i was diagnosed with Herpes 4 years ago i lived in pain with the knowledge that i wasn't going to ever be well again i contacted so many herbal doctors on this issue and wasted a large sum of money but my condition never got better i was determined to get my life back so one day i saw Mr. Morrison Hansen post on how Dr. Emu saved him from Herpes with herbal medicine i contacted Dr. Emu on his Email: Emutemple@gmail.com we spoke on the issue i told him all that i went through and he told me not to worry that everything will be fine again so he prepared the medicine and send it to me and told me how to use it, after 14 days of usage I went to see the doctor for test,then the result was negative, am the happiest woman on earth now thanks to Dr. Emu God bless you. Email him at: Emutemple@gmail.com Call or Whats-app him: +2347012841542 
Anonymous wrote 1 month ago:
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Anonymous wrote 3 weeks ago:
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