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My New Life

Some days I don't really know about life. I have taken a few hits since I first joined MFP in 2011 I suffered congestive heart failure that year. It's a big deal. You know it took 8 months to recover and a year to complete Couch to 5K.

I am glad I did it even if the doctors told me never to run.

In October of 2013 I was diagnosed with cancer. I am still working through the treatment options for that one. In 2014 and 2015 I was diagnosed with Basil Cell Carcinoma and Melanoma. In 2015 I had a colon tumor removed. I am back in for a check up in a week or so.

Cancer sucks.

Then I had the regular life stuff. I got divorced and lost a job. David lost more than a few days worrying about that stuff. :( My health insurance was off the charts expensive and so was my medication. I had to schedule runs and be very careful about what I brought home to eat.

As of today I have been 100% successful in not dying from difficult times.

I am glad that I had those 8 months recovering from heart disease to lay a foundation. I weighed my food and logged every dang meal for well over 3 years.

I have gone back to that a few times.

I still don't have cheat meals. God knows there are enough days in a year where I can't control the menu. I still don't eat a lot of things from fast food to pretty much anything containing lots of carbs.

I still stick to the Superfoods. MORE HERE.

I have decided to live. A few tears ago I wrote: "If I were to make a list of the crap that has gone down in the last few years I would probably shoot myself before I finished writing it. But I am focusing on my progress not my history. I have lost almost 80 pounds and went from a wheezing-fat-old-guy to a slimmer, fitter runner."

How does one live with cancer? You live life on purpose.

You plan to do things you were putting off, and put off things you were planning. You say "I love you" more and get a second goodbye kiss. You look up friends you haven't seen in a while. You shut out the people that minimize your feelings by saying, "It's early, at least you won't die.", "My dad had that an he was fine." or "My uncle had that an he died."

When surgery has the potential to reduce your quality of life instead of make it better, it's not an easy option to choose.

As a runner I have overcome a lot. Most of it was mental. I just didn't think I could do anything. I even had medication and doctor's opinions to bolster my excuses. I found a hundred reasons to quit, and only one to help me succeed: a better life. How I feel at the end of a run is the only reward I have. It's not the bling, the cheering, the personal accomplishments, no, it's how I feel.

I remember 5 years ago when a 5K was about as daunting a run as I ever thought I could face. I ran it. In less than 2 months I will be taking my stupid tumor to the starting line of the Berlin Marathon.

I am also engaged and planning on a new chapter in life.

For today, I am working at a new job, praying and living in the moment. Tomorrow may never come, and I don't know if I've "got this." I don't know if I will win against the Big-C or not. I just know that I am looking forward to being with my favorite woman, hugging my kids, catching a little sunshine, making a co-worker smile, and letting the things of God swirl around in my spirit.

Thanks for the votes and comments.

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39 comments:

Time2LoseWeightNOW wrote 11 months ago:
Awesome! It's this kind of positivity that keeps you strong and running for your life with all you've got.... and you bring us along for the run. Thanks, David!! You are my inspiration!
BobbyDaniel wrote 11 months ago:
Proud for you my brother! So thankful that God allowed us to cross paths!
kendallvon wrote 11 months ago:
You are so strong! It completely blows my mind! Congrats on your engagement, and your positive thinking. Blessings!
Tonigirl519 wrote 11 months ago:
As always thanks for sharing and being so open....you have a calling where God truly does use all circumstances in life to minister to others....you've taught me to live.through your living..
Tonigirl519 wrote 11 months ago:
And congratulations on your engagement...
Birdieeez wrote 11 months ago:
Congratulations...that's one lucky lady!
ValiRaeDee wrote 11 months ago:
Thanks for the inspiration. I started the C25K app last week and I'm simply trying to overcome my natural tendencies as a non-runner. You have much bigger hills to climb and you've given me a lot of perspective. I love your blog posts - congrats on your pending nuptials and I will off light and prayers toward your recovery.
GoRun2 wrote 11 months ago:
Wow, thanks for sharing. Your post kind of blew me away. Congrats on the engagement.
izzybelle2013 wrote 11 months ago:
I love your blogs. I think, however, that this is the best one you have ever written. I am so glad that things are FINALLY going your way. You have worked so hard, and still have hard work to do. Tell that bleeping tumor to hit the road, and good luck in Berlin. You deserve it.
jackflak wrote 11 months ago:
Congratulations on the engagement! And thank you for writing. I'd write something witty and profound about your reading and my own issues, but I'm not that good of a writer. So just I'll just write a simple thank you.

Thank you
skinnyme47 wrote 11 months ago:
You have such a positive attitude. Congratulations on your engagement.
RedSierra wrote 11 months ago:
Congrats on your positive attitude and how you embrace life. Especially congrats on your engagement. I hope you have a wonderful life together. It's always a good decision to choose love.
Anonymous wrote 11 months ago:
Congratulations to both of you. Life is meant to be shared, in as many ways as possible. Quadriply happy about events going in your favor. That pendulum has to come around sometimes, what took it so long? So many ((((((())))))).
Hoppymom wrote 11 months ago:
I hope you outrun cancer for a long, long time. I hope your life with your new lady is joyful and blessed with good health. I want you to know how moving this was to read. I am nearly in tears at what you have endured and risen above. That purpose has made you so strong and so resilient that I can't imagine having such inner strength. Hugs and prayers for you.
heather4949 wrote 11 months ago:
Yes, life is good. Live one day at a time.
It's great having love in your life, congratulations
kdavid1987 wrote 11 months ago:
<3
TrishasTime wrote 11 months ago:
Congratulations on your engagement. I would like to the thankyou for the positives and can do you share with us
babbyb1 wrote 11 months ago:
Continuing to pray and send you good vibes! You inspire me.
measem1 wrote 11 months ago:
Good job on completing C25k I think that is wonderful. Glad you recovered from heart attack keep doing what you can but don't push it. I am trying to get back to walking once I can walk 4 miles I'm going to try the c25k program I've tried before but got injured and never went back to it. Thanks for inspiring me and reminding me what will happen if I don't get moving and get some of my weight off. Thanks
lacry1 wrote 11 months ago:
Thank you!
SheilaCali wrote 11 months ago:
"But I am focusing on my progress not my history". Dude, best line ever (so far). We all have a history, but we can also all make progress. Thanks from the bottom of my (also) slightly irregular heart.
bjbixler wrote 11 months ago:
I absolutely love this post. This is how we should all,be living our lives, and it sucks that sometimes it takes cancer, or divorce, or losing a job, etc. To realize it. I'm sorry you've had to go through all that, but as the saying goes, pain is mandatory, suffering is optional... In so glad you've chosen not to suffer.
Cheers to what the future holds for you and your new partner, and good luck in Berlin!
nats2508 wrote 11 months ago:
Thanks for sharing such an honest and heartfelt post. Congrats on your engagement and with love, support and faith we can face anything, just need to put one foot in front of the other.. All the best and go get it in Berlin!! x
lorriemb wrote 11 months ago:
What a great testimony to HOPE and LIVING.

THANK YOU for sharing. It makes a difference in my life to know that the tsunami isn't targeting only me.
sdereski wrote 11 months ago:
I love reading your blog posts. They are always positive and SO inspirational. I wish you all the best dear sir.
Chinkimof wrote 11 months ago:
Last week wasn't a good one for me, but yep, time to move on and continue to seek deep rooted joy, hope and love
daneejela wrote 11 months ago:
Whatever I can say will sound stupid and shallow compared to what you have written. I am just writing this so that you know it has been read and appreciated.
swat1948 wrote 11 months ago:
My Daddy used to say that God helps them that help themselves. You've clearly done that! Great blog! Now if only that would sink into my head...
BexB42 wrote 11 months ago:
You time! Great resilience. Enjoy your time!
ILoveGingerNut wrote 11 months ago:
I am glad you found the motivation to overcome so much. I don't have a lot of it right now.
GloriaLoveFaithHope wrote 11 months ago:
You bought me to tears. You certainly have had your share of challenges. Thank you so much for sharing. I'm currently going through a divorce and looking for work. There's days I feel like I can't take the pain anymore. Stories such as yours are wonderful to read. Wishing you much happiness and success with everything. God Bless...Gloria
ma6791 wrote 11 months ago:
This is the first time I have read your blog. Thank you for writing this. I'm sorry you've had to go through so much, I can't imagine, but your writing about it has encouraged me and I'm sure many others. I was thinking about what you said about how you live with cancer, living life with purpose. Good advice for all of us. I want to live my life this way, I try to but need to be reminded and encouraged often so I thank you for mentioning it. Praying for God's blessings on you.
chrwel02 wrote 11 months ago:
Wow! You are an inspiration! Congratulations on your weight loss and your strength to move on and live your life! I love your T-shirt in the picture! :)
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CATCLK wrote 10 months ago:
Agree w/planning and very inspired by your post...thank-you for being a mentor for so many!
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Will continue to keep you in prayer and hope you receive a miracle too!;D
rubydew1 wrote 10 months ago:
Congratulations on your positive attitude & success.
denice0414 wrote 9 months ago:
Congratulations on your engagement!! I have been following on mfp for years... You are such an inspiration and I am praying for you!!
anilanku67 wrote 9 months ago:
well firstly congrats and you are really so strong

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