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About Those Goals...

It lasted about a week, maybe a week and a half. And then my usual habits got the better of me and my eating went to crap. Of my 3 goals that I set out for myself, I've be OK on one of them, half-assed one, and definitely have made zero progress on the last one. So.... what is wrong with me now?

Goal 1 - Get running again so I can run for a mile

Well, I have been running at the gym as a warm up to my New Rules workouts, so that's not terrible. I've done intervals of 1/4 mile walk, 1/4 run for a mile. I can go the full 1/4 mile, I just need to start increasing that distance gradually. It's not a bad start, I just got lazy and haven't pushed myself at all past 1/4 mile.

Goal 2-  Lost 20 pounds at a pound a week. 

That one was going well for the first week, and then it's totally a wreck after that. I'm definitely not down a few pounds. If anything, I'm up a few pounds because I've eaten out so much over the last week. i realized I did awesome when Randy was in Utah for a conference for a few days, but my sister visiting, Randy returning, happy hours, etc and now I'm right back where I was at the beginning of the month (and then some). I'm clearly giving this 50%, because I'm great a few days a week and then the rest I just throw it away. 

I think part of the issue is that I try to keep up with Randy, when he's clearly able to eat more than me (and worse than me) without becoming a cow. I need to stop serving myself the same sized portions and I need to insist more that we cook our own food instead of defaulting to going out. That way I can at least control what I'm eating. When we do go out, I need to stop just ordering what looks good. I do it WAY too often and there's no reason for it. Once in a while, sure. But every time? No.

Goal 3 - Restart New Rules of Lifting for Women

This one I have managed to do, although with less workouts that I planned. I wanted to do 3 a week. I've done 2 I think (maybe one week had 3). So that's not bad. I am starting to build some upper body strength again and I like doing the weights. I even throw in an extra set or two of something different to add to it and make the workout a little longer. So at least there's one positive. BUT I can't exercise away my crappy eating (and drinking), so this is only going to be moderately effective without fixing the rest of my problems.

I have to wear jeans again, and pants, and things that aren't pretty flowy dresses that hide what I want to hide. I don't want to keep going like this, but at the same time I'm being so FREAKING lazy that I piss myself off. I kind of wish I could slap myself back into the motivation and self control that I had before. I'm actually getting really pissed off right now just thinking about it. I'm nearly back to where I started when I found MFP (still 20 pounds off from my max, but that's WAY TO EFFING CLOSE!). 

I think I need to do 2 things. Really focus on planning ahead so I don't get myself into situations where I'm making bad choices, and get Randy to help me when I'm with him in terms of eating out and not going crazy on bad food. I'll admit, my willpower is gone when I'm at his place. He doesn't keep the fully stocked healthy kitchen like I do. And I know he wants me to get back to where I was, so at this point, he's just going to have to help me out. Otherwise, it's not going to happen. I just keep thinking that eventually (when the time comes for all this of course), I'm going to have to wear a wedding dress and I refuse to look like a cow in lace. So I better start now. 

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kimberg75 wrote 46 months ago:
Sounds like you know what you need to do to be it's just DOING it!! :) I know how hard it can be that's for sure. I'm up 15 lbs. from my lowest weight on here 2 yrs. ago. It just has a way of creeping back on whenever you slip just a bit...amazing how fast it can pile on! Best of luck to you. I'm rooting for ya! :)
KWake1 wrote 46 months ago:
I've been following your blog for a while. And on your friends list for a while too. Do you realize how often you talk about eating out and drinking? Honest question. Not trying to be snarky. You have great exercise habits. You know how to eat properly. SO STOP DRINKING SO MUCH ALCOHOL AND EATING OUT!! It is possible to survive without a beer everyday and take out. Seriously, go back over your blogs and posts. Look at what you're saying every week. Again, I'm not trying to be snarky, just trying to help with some perspective. You know how to do all this, you've done it before. So do it.
00trayn wrote 46 months ago:
@KWake1 - You're completely right. I know that was something I rarely did back when I was successful. It's a pretty big part of what Randy and I do on the weekends. We go out for dinner, we get lazy and do take out. We have beer with... well, everything! The house is kind of full of it. That really is the key to getting things on track, and the willpower to do it has dwindled significantly.
Krizzle4Rizzle wrote 46 months ago:
But there has to be a happy medium right? Enjoy a beer/drink every now and then. Choose healthier options when you eat. We have been pals for a long whole (in Mfp years.) I remember when you said your Doctor said you were prone to gain weight easier. Could there be something medically that blocking the weight loss?
heidiberr wrote 46 months ago:
I think with the eating out or drinking thing you have you ask yourself what is most important to you? Like I personally cut back on alcohol when I'm trying to lose cause I'd rather get my calories from food. If the calories in alcohol are worth it to you, then it's about filling yourself up with nutrient dense low calorie food. Chicken breast is about 110 calories, green beans are 30 calories for 2/3 of a cup--you could use the beer to be your "carb" with dinner and still have a satisfying dinner. The other thing I do is order the sandwich/burger/etc that I want, but get it without the sides at the restaurant so most of my dinner calories are from the sandwich.
pnesabrina wrote 44 months ago:
I'm so sorry to say, but you're eating out of happiness! Yeah, it makes you gain weight anyway, but it's a lot better than eating out of depression or compulsion.
I've been following you since before you met Randy. Life cannot be about losing weight. I agree with Krizzle, you have to find the happy medium.
I have an intense social life and also love beer, but I started to practice competitive jiu jitsu one year ago. So, one month before a competition I cut alcohol and start eating cleaner… Even more because I have to make weight.
I compete about five times a year so… I can't be too far away from my competition weight. It involves a little bit of sacrifice but not so much since I exercise a lot so my diet is quite liberal.
This is where i found (some) balance, with a few bumps along the road. You just have to find yours. Because we both know that going back to being a diet hermit… Well… really sucks!
Hoping you all the best

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