All these doctor appointments! Yeah, I have my annual Pap coming up on Nov. 12th. I am trying to squeeze things in because come January I am off my mother's insurance.

Sounds like you have been productive today Jill!

Lisa is the one who inspired me to get my butt in to the doctor, talking about her blood sugar. Mine's borderline, and since I'm past due for that and everything else medical, I decided now's as good a time as any to get moving. I'm not sure if I really need to go to the gyno. I'll see what my regular doctor says. I see him Nov. 3, the dermatologist Nov. 6, and have the mammogram (I hate those!!!) Nov. 9. My son's appointment is Nov. 13. Wonder when my hubby's will be?

OK, off to study car insurance coverage and decide who to call for quotes...

I hung out with my friend Will last night and he took me to the dr's and to pick up my daughter today. I think he's interested in me and He seems really nice and He's not ugly. the only problem is he's still in the military and might go away for another year in March.

I WROTE A BIG LONG COMMENT AND FOR SOME REASON IT DIDN'T POST!!! I'M NOT TYPING ALL THAT AGAIN!!

Basically I told yall that I'm stressed because me and darron are fighting. lol...guess yall are lucky you just get the summary

Aww, Kim I hope it gets better. Just remember not to stress eat.

Kim - what's going on with you and Darron? I agree with Silver, don't stress eat. Remember you are doing this FOR YOU!

Jill - so glad that I inspired you!

What are everyone's plans for Halloween weekened?

I don't know what my plans are for Halloween yet! My neighbor wants to walk around the housing.

Halloween is going to be a calm one for me this year. When at college there was always a party / haunted house to attend. This year, I am just spending it like every weekend. I may go ride my horse for a little while.. but I will be knitting my aunt's birthday gift and perhaps working on graduate school applications. Maybe I will try my hand at this awesome sounding Pumpkin Soup in my new Better Homes and Garden cookbook.

Kim - I hope everything is okay with Darron!

Yall know I tell yall everything right?? I tell yall stuff I don't even tell my best friend! I haven't told her me and darron are fighting because she loves him so much and thinks hes so great for me I don't want her to have bad feelings toward him, or even worse think i'm messing stuff up.

So let me give you the history....Me and Darron met two years ago on vacation in pensacola. We hit it off and started dating long distance. We dated for four months, in those four months, he flew to alabama once and i flew to tampa once. So we saw each other a total of three times. Well, he broke up with me after four months because he was going on deployment and he didn't think we should stay together. so yeah, he broke my heart. anyways, we stayed in touch and at the beginning of this year he told me that he still had feelings for me and knew he would regret it if he didn't see where this went. so he moved in with me in may. So we've been living together for five months. At first things were like a fairytale. We both love each other very much. But the last few weeks we have been doing nothing but fighting!!! Everyday almost! And that is not me at all! I hate conflict! It seems like he gets angry easily. and i get my feelings hurt easily and we are just clashing in that way. We're fighting over little stupid things. I don't know whats going on. But today is the first day I've seriously wondered if we're gonna make it. He can be selfish at times and i can tell he's been spoiled his whole life, and I'm very giving and easily taken advantage of and very far from spoiled! so maybe our differences are clashing? I don't know..and I don't know what to do to fix it. I told him we needed to have a long talk. but he doesn't take anything serious!! he makes me laugh i give him that! he has no problem bringing a smile to my face, but when we need to handle something serious its just a joke to him! which i have a feeling our talk will end up being a joke to him. I'm also scared that I'm just being crazy.....but i want to know this is going to work before i move to houston....sorry to ramble....


we're taking my nieces trick or treating and to a party at church

I havent really thought much about food. I feel more sick to my stomach than hungry, so I'm sure I'll be fine. Well, I'm out of here for now, I'll check back in a lil later.

Awe....Kim - *big hugs* everything will work itself out. Maybe it's all the stress you have going on in your life. You've been worried about your job and that's been on your mind. You're not happy with how you feel about yourself and that radiates out around you. Darron is probably pushing your limits a little bit by continuously bringing in the food that you should NOT be eating. I know he means well, but it's what you don't need right now. I completely get it. Relationships are hard. And LOTS of work - from both parties. You need to do something to make you feel good about yourself; I think everything else will fall into place around that. If you're not feeling good about yourself it has SUCH an impact on the rest of your life. Believe me, I know. I'm following my own advice too. I'm considering going to get my nails done before my interview - just for that little ump of confidence that I need! I'm going to buy a new suit tonight and I'm going to knock them dead on Monday. What can you do that will make YOU feel good NOW?

Kim, don't you hate it when you start fighting over inconsequential things? I always hated that with Shane. Some days we'd fight over the dumbest sh**. I feel your pain. I hope things get better!!!

Don't starve yourself either. When you're hurting emotionally, it's more important than ever to take care of yourself physically, whether you feel like it or not.

I hope everything works out for you and Darron. Sometimes guys have a hard time with the serious stuff because they're uncomfortable getting in touch with their own emotions, so if they joke around, they don't have to deal with what's uncomfortable. I sense that you two love each other very much. I remember how hard it was our first year together. There are just so many adjustments to make. I was so glad we lived together and worked through those things before we got married. I'm not sure I could have handled the stress of that plus a wedding!

Big hugs to both of you.

It is a good thing that you are living together now, Kim. That way you both can decide if this is how it should be / you want it to be for the rest of your life. I lived with an ex for a summer one year, and we learned that we don't really work well living together, so that was the end of that relationship.

Like Jill said above, men joke a lot to alleviate their awkward feelings regarding emotions. Once you guys get the hang of things, I am sure it'll be fine.

Thanks girls....I'm hoping that we can talk tonight and make everything better. Both of our lives have changed alot over the last few months, and we're both unhappy with our bodies. So maybe we can fix things. I'm trying not to stress about it, but its hard, I'm a worrier. I do feel pretty bad about myself right now. I feel so fat and unsexy. I hope we can change ourselves for the better and do it together. We both have to adapt to the situation. I'm going to put my feelings out there and hope that he can be open with me too about his. I'll let you know how it goes. Thanks for being there for me girls. I love yall!!!

Love you too Kim! We're always here.

I'll second that!

I agree with Steph and Jill. Love ya kim! I think your beautiful.

Well since I am having super healthy tacos - and four tacos with tbs of sour cream and 1/4 cup of cheese will only be 574 calories. hehe. I love these tacos, so that's why I am having four.

I am making the tacos with Morningstar Crumbles. It's vegetarian protein.. but with the spices added it really doesn't taste different than meat, just a slight texture difference. So, I am definitely getting my servings of veggies today.

Sounds yummy, Steph. I had pizza and some muffins. I definitely went over on Calories. I knew i shouldn't be snacking, but I couldn't help it. The muffins were so yummy and calling my name. But they are almost gone now. Shar's eating them for breakfast.

Yeah, We got pumpkin pudding cake last night, so I had a slice. I love pumpkin.. so anything pumpkin I can't resist. All the pumpkin goodness is the killer for me this time of year.

Boo!

Scared ya, didn't I?

I hope everyone had a good evening. I was falling asleep on the couch, so I went to bed at 9 o'clock. Of course, I was wide awake at 5 this morning. The time change is just going to make that worse. LOL. I'll be going to bed at 8 and getting up at 4, and that's just silly!

I think I found our new insurance company. It is so worth checking around and comparing rates. Our auto insurance is going down $700/year, and our homeowners is going to be cut in half — and both are giving us better coverage and lower deductibles than what we currently have. If you're curious, we're switching from Geico to American Family Insurance. We're also adding an umbrella policy, which protects us even more, and it's still going to cost us quite a bit less overall. I'm doing the happy dance over here!

I fixed pepper steak for dinner last night. I brown some top round with some worcestershire sauce, minced garlic and green pepper. Then I add a can of tomato sauce and a can of French onion soup and let it simmer good half hour or so. I thicken it with 10 oz low-fat milk and 3 tablespoons of flour. Last night we had it on top of barley, but rice or pasta work too. It's so simple but rich and tasty for something so low-fat. It's probably off the charts sodium-wise with the soup, but I don't really track my sodium. I'm going to ask the doctor about that when I see him Tuesday. I wonder if I should try to keep it down even though my blood pressure is quite low (about 90/60).

Dang, I'm chatty this morning! Sorry 'bout that.

Happy Halloween everybody, and keep your grubby paws out of the candy bowl!!!

Jill

I didn't do too bad last night. i checked my calories The only thing I forgot to put in was the quarter of a hot dog and like 4 tbs of mac and cheese.

When I first read that, I thought you said 4 POUNDS of mac and cheese!

Happy Halloween Jill! I am glad you found such an awesome deal on insurance. That's awesome.

Keep your mitts out of the candy bowl too.