oregonlady

45 years old : Female : Portland, OR

"i would like a happy body to keep my happy mind company."

About Me

all my life, i've wished and dreamed to be "the perfect weight".
a lot of people, including myself years ago, would be very happy at my current weight.
i am closer now to some kinda goal than ever before in my life.
i wonder if i will ever really feel i've finally reached it, even if i weighed 90lbs!
currently, i am not happy w/ myself.
~i feel i have an eating/drinking disorder too.

my highest weight was 240 in 2001.
~i posted a pic of that here (careful if u look at it, i was wearing a bathing suit)!
i've been working out at a health spa about 5 days per week for about 6 years now! i've seen many good changes.
~but i still feel i'm too big.
i joined MFP in january 2009 at the weight of 160.
i'm 5'6". i hope to be happy w/ a goal weight of 130.

my husband is wonderful!
he fell in love w/ me back in 2001 when i was over 200lbs. but now, he treasures & enjoys my leaner/healthier body every day!
~my husband touches me in ways i thought only a thin person desirves.