BRILE

29 years old : Female : Kennewick, WA

"I eat merely to put food out of my mind."

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About Me

I have NEVER been able to lose weight and keep it off. Typically, I have lost between 5-10lbs and stuck, but maintained it for years. Well, I don't just want to lose a little to be "healthy" I need to lose AT LEAST 50lbs! 5-10 lbs is NOT going to cut it.

I have had a high stress couple of years between being a single mom, finishing school, moving 3 times, sending my fiance to Iraq(with all the drama that includes), AND now moving to WA(where he is stationed), going from being a school teacher to a part time random job employee, etc. To top it off, I am living with my in-laws(with 2 sister-in-laws and a brother-in-law). No food is safe.

Overall, I am REALLY unhappy these days for many reasons. My living situation, my employment situation, and my marriage has many complications(returning soldier, stress from him being unemployed and habit clashes). Sadly, I am one of those people who uses food for comfort, BUT to make it worse...over the last 2 months we have eaten out a TON. I have eaten out more the last 2 months than I did growin up all combined! So, I shouldn't be overly suprised by the situation I am in.

Why I Want To Get In Shape

I have been using this site on and off for over a year. I wouldn't say I was 100% completely dedicated though. In my mind I figured stress, limited time, finances, etc were good enough excuses to NOT be dedicated.

Well, the stress hasn't lessened, I have a bit more time (because my jobs are both part time, which does increase stress), and am way less financially secure.

This morning I got on the scale, after 2 months of not really working out much and eating HORRIBLY! I tipped the scales at 199.5 lbs, I have not weighed even close to this since I was PREGNANT! It was defestating, I knew I had put on a little bit of weight but 20lbs in 2 months! Oh my gosh!!!

I have to be 100% dedicated this time around because I am worried about becomning a Type II Diabetic (like both of my parents and a few brothers) AND not being able to get pregnant(I do not want to weigh 200lbs to start a pregnancy).

I can't pretend anymore that being FAT is okay, because it's not and it never was. In a weird way I think I am afraid of NOT being fat... Does that make sense?!?!

"Food is the most primitive form of comfort."
- Sheila Graham

My Inspirations

  • K-bug
  • Future children.
  • Feeling better about myself.
  • Being healthy for life.

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