Making some changes, removing some stress...
Happy Saturday, everyone! I just wanted to post a quick thank-you to those of you who have shared some encouraging words with me lately. I guess I wanted to share the reason why things have been so tough lately and my logging has been so hit-or-miss, and why I expect those things to change very soon. My eating habits and exercise habits are very much influenced by my surroundings, specifically my stress levels. This has been an issue I've struggled with since I was a tween, and it's just really stomped all over me lately.
As some of you know from chats we've had, my workplace situation is super tumultuous, because of my boss. She's been one of my mother's best friends for a decade, and has known me since I was a kiddo, which should have been enough of a red flag for me not to go work for her - don't mix friends with business, and all that. Anyways, half of the issue is that she still sees me as a ten-year-old kid that she can boss around and fuss at and treat with no respect whatsoever, and the other half is that her two daughter, close to my age, has thus far been a total failure as an adult and has just wrecked her life and the life of her two babies, and my boss has been taking her anger and stress out on me, even telling other workers about how much she wishes it was her daughter instead of me that would be happy and doing well in life.
All in all, it's been a really terrible situation and I've gained about 45-50lbs since I started working there in February, which is a crazy amount for such a small time frame, to me. But the reason I say I expect things to start changing is that, Thursday, I finally said "enough is enough", and turned in my notice. My last day is the 24th and I already feel so empowered and eager, and HAPPY, which I haven't truly been in a while. I don't have a back-up right now and I'm nervous, but we can afford it, and I'm going to focus on some certification classes I've been putting off so that I can finally put my CIS degrees to a good use and find a job in my proper field. :)
Anyways, I'm just really excited to get away from her and remove the biggest source of stress and anxiety in my life, and to get myself back to a healthier state of mind (and body). So, thanks again to all of you for your encouragement and kind words, and please send some positive thoughts my way that I can go ahead and get back to better habits NOW, instead of waiting until two weeks from now.