This is my first blog post, so bare with me..
First I will tell you a little about myself. I am 29 years old and have been married to the love of my life for almost ten years now.. I am a photographer and housewife.. Now to my post...
So this Sunday is Mothers Day.. A day to celebrate all the amazing things your mom does.. but for me, and many other women, this day is just one more reminder that we are not moms..
I have always wanted to be a mom.. I have know from a young age that I wanted children 4 of them to be exact. Unfortunately what you want and what you get can be two very different things.. I have a angel baby but none that I can hold in my arms, or sing lullaby’s to. I don't get to do all those mundane things that so many moms take for granted like shuffling there children around and making dinner.. Have you ever wished for one min that you didn't have kids? Well I would take your place in a heartbeat.
Not being a mom and the loss of my daughter have been major contributions to why I overeat.. I have been punishing myself for not being able to be a "real women" not being able to give my husband children, but not anymore..
Sometimes we just have to make peace with what hand we are dealt. We have to overcome and move on.. It's not easy, I struggle everyday.. I still feel like I have done something wrong and that I am not a real women because I cannot do the one thing that my body should be able to do. But I do know that I cannot keep punishing myself. I have a husband that loves me, friends that love me, and family that loves me.. I deserve to be happy and ,my life is worth living.. I will still have my bad days, and I will still want to eat my sorrows away, but I LOVE myself enough to not do so anymore or at least try my hardest not to..
So this Mother's Day, be appreciative of what you have, don't take it for granted, and be thankful this is a holiday that you are blessed to celebrate..