My mind is playing evil games. I know I am so much smaller than I have ever been. But I cannot get past seeing myself as big. I honestly feel worse about my body right now than I did at almost 200 pounds. I just feel like no matter what I do I will never get to my goal weight and even if I do it will not be good enough for me. I am getting so depressed and down on myself. I do not even want to try anymore.
I know logically that I am wrong. I can get to my goal, I can be smaller. But it is not enough. It never will be enough.
Sounds even more stupid and crazy when I type it out.