I need to share this.
Motivation is never easy for me, never has been.
I lose it pretty dang quick.
Within a matter of days, it's gone.
I KNOW if he could do this, I can accomplish my goals.
Always believe in yourself, and never give up.
Watch the inspirational video : (It's only 5 minutes, and I know it will make most of us rethink just how possible our goals are, no matter what)
Please watch, and feel free to leave your comments below.
Posted on 2/02/2013 by rocketpopsicles
I like writting these, as I go back and read them a lot and they help me notice what differences I've made!
These are a list of vows I am making until the end of my school year! (April 2013)
1. No more french vanillas, of any size from tim hortons. (before every class, expensive and so unhealthy!)
2. No more cafe food! Unless its a plain salad if I had no time! I shall bring my own HEALTHY lunches!
3. No pop / juice / other beverage that is not WATER!
4. Eat breakfast, every dang morning!
5. No more midnight meals/snacking! (becuase let's face it, snacking ends up being meal sized.)
6. Watching my alcohol intake on the weekends! I'm not a big drinker, but I tend to have 5-6 drinks when I go out and those calories add up!
More to add as I think of them!
Posted on 1/15/2013 by rocketpopsicles
So this is just becuase lately, I\ve really been down. So I just need to write and let it all out.
I've been falling way off track lately, but now I realize that is okay. I'm picking myself back up, and at least right now I can say that I am doing that, and I know that one day I will be able to turn around and say "I picked myself back up and kept going".
I've stopped seeing this as a weightloss journey, I really have.
Becuase I constantly weigh myself, multiple times a day, when I think of weightloss.
But this is a lifestyle. It's a WHOLE change. It's healthy eating. It's getting fresh air. It's finding joy in things other than electronics and technology. It's finding joy in nature. It's making my body feel good. It's choosing fruit over chocolate.
I'm only 19. I know that I'm going to make mistakes. But I am trying. I can't beat myself up anymore. I'm doing what I can, and getting better.
I admitted my problem with finding anorexia and eating disorders amazing. I thought skin and bone was the only type of body that looked good on a girl. I thought girls who weight more than 120 pounds were just gross. I thought that it was strength to not eat, or to purge.
I admitted that problem - and I got better. I over came those thoughts. I now realize muscle isn't bad - eating is healthy - and beauty comes in all sizes. I also realized that beautiful insides make beautiful outsides.
I recently admitted my binge problem. I will binge on 1000-1500 calories worth of food 4-5 times a day on binge days. I don't even think about it when I do it. I just make it, eat it, and right after the last bite realize what I have done. It hurts every time, and I hate myself for it.
I recently admitted that, and I am trying to get better. I am trying to make sure I am aware of what I am eating, and WHY I am eating. I am not better yet, but I know that if I keep working at it I will be.
I don't eat healthy every day.
I don't excersize every day.
I don't eat healthy for about half the week.
I don't excersize for about half the week.
But I am trying to change that. I move in one week to school.
I am going to work my ass off at school, and on my body.
I had to overcome my bigger problems first - my mental problems, the way I think.
I've almost done that.
So now it's time for the change.
So no longer am I ashamed of my 9-12 pound (flucuates) weight loss in 4 months.
I am freaking proud that I realized my problems, admitted them, and took the step to being better.
ahhh.. felt nice to write !
Posted on 8/19/2012 by rocketpopsicles
So, as most people know, I kind of suck at this healthy thing.. But I am really trying. So tonight, I decided to not go for the frozen dinners I was left with for the week while my grandparents are away, and make something more healthy.
Seasonings Used : Pepper , Garlic Seasoning. I put the Garlic in the water, and the pepper, that I boiled the veggies in, and let them boil in it. I used pepper after on everything. That's all I used. No butter or anything.
2 cups of each veggie. :) Boiled for like 20 minutes. (I like soft veggies)
Fish and Veggies! :) Can't believe how filling this was! and it was actually REALLY good!
The Fish I used. I would HIGHLY recomend it !
My dessert! 140g of Vanilla Source Yogurt. (50 cals) Fresh Blueberries and fresh Strawberries!
It all tasted so good, and was so filling!
Posted on 7/29/2012 by rocketpopsicles
I got a ton of messages on here asking about my laptop, so I am just going to explain here and I did in the forums, so everyone can just read it and I don't have to type it out a million times, as it upsets me to do so.
Last night, I went to the Nickelback Concert in Toronto, ON.
I had a backpack with me as I was going home with my friend for a few days afterwards.
My Backpack Contained : Laptop, Clothes, Book, Laptop Charger, Phone Charger.
My Purse had : Credit Cards, ID, over $150 Cash, Ipod.
When my friend picked me up, we put my backpack in the trunk ( as it hides it better than the back seat) and we went on our journey.
Well, when we got to the concert, we parked and I paid for parking.
I grabbed a bit of money, and my License for ID, and shoved my purse under the seat.
We went into the concert - had a BLAST. I met one of the bands (My Darkest Days), got autographs and it made me so happy.
When Nickelback came on, I stood and danced the ENTIRE 2 hours - NO BREAK! I was like - YES CALORIE burning to make up for my alcohol (only 1 drink!) Pop, and pizza.
After the concert we jump in the car, I grab my purse from under the seat, and we head on our long journey home. (2 hour drive)
We get home, grab my backpack from the trunk, and head inside - I changed and we talked for a good hour.
Then I went to grab my phone charger.. I got really confused as I couldn't find it, and I was like I'm sure I packed it with my laptop.. Then I realized there was A LOT of extra room in my bag. So I was like oh god no, and dumped my bag on the floor, throwing everything everywhere.
I started balling my eyes out. (Laptop has ALL personal info, passwords, banking, ect. and a lifetime of pictures from family I no longer speak to such as my sister and dad and such)
We run to the trunk of the car, and my friend finds a pair of my jeans in her trunk, and seeing as how my backpack was zipped, I knew right there - I didn't forget it - It was definitely stolen.
I freaked out - called my mom - cried for hours - never slept.
There isn't anything I can do to get it back.
Theres no cameras at my concert venue.
So I lost my Laptop, Phone Charger, and Laptop Charger to some low-life who is to damn ignorant to get a job and buy their own things.
So my whole night ruined - had to fork out lots of money to get a new computer, go through hassell of freezing bank accounts and changing passwords and such.
My concert - ruined from that damn thief
So that's the story - and please NEVER think your trunk is safe.
FUNNY PART -> I do not fold clothes, to me packing is CRAMMING everything in my bag.
Well, The thief stole my stuff, FOLDED MY CLOTHES, put them back in my bag, and zipped my bag up.
Yup. They even folded my clothes, maybe thinking it made it okay to steal my stuff.
Posted on 7/12/2012 by rocketpopsicles
To Do this :
Tomorrow tell 5 random users, they are doing great on their journey.
And do not be rude, mean, or negative to ANYONE.
If you complete this challenge, try to do it again the next day.
And if you can do it two days in a row.. make it 3!
AND KEEP IT UP!
Let's get this back to a motivation site, and let's kick off the negativity - Just like the pounds!
Posted on 7/10/2012 by rocketpopsicles
*****Please know - I wrote this myself! So if you're taking it, please give me credit :)
1. I promise to be true to who I am
2. I promise to never make someone else feel bad for their weight - Ive struggled for 19 years.
3. I promise to support people in their decisions to improve their life.
4. I promise to believe I am worth it.
5. I promise to wake up each day as a new day.
6. I promise to not beat myself up for falling down.
7. I promise to pick myself up each and every time I fall
8. I promise to try MY best.
9. I promise to believe in myself.
10, I promise to stop being negative about me.
11. I promise to love my body, inside and out.
12. I promise to be as motivating for others and they are for me.
13. I promise to never intentionally hurt someone's feelings.
14. I promise to always strive to reach my goals.
15. I promise to never give up, at anything, ever again.
16. I promise to live a life I am proud of sharing with others.
17. I promise to share my story with others.
18. I promise to keep my promises.
19. I promise to keep at this as long as it takes.
20. I promise to never harm myself again intentionally.
21. I promise to believe in others, and cheer them on.
22. I promise to congratulate others in their accomplishments instead of getting jelous.
23. I promise to not let someone belittle me.
24. I promise to not listen to the people who say I can't.
25. I promise to erase "I can't" from my vocabulary (Unless it has to do with spiders)
26. I promise to do everything for me, not for others.
27. I promise to treat people the way I want to be treated.
28. I promise to not let people take advantage of me.
29. I promise to believe I am strong.
30. I promise to remember my journey, and never take anything for granted.
Posted on 7/09/2012 by rocketpopsicles
Posted on 7/09/2012 by rocketpopsicles
I have decided to use this space to post each and every goal - weight wise, to school wise, to non-scale victory!
They are not in a specific order! The ones with a date in the [ ] have been accomplished on that date!
WEIGHT GOALS(START 290LBS)
[July 5th 2012] 285 pounds
[July 9th 2012 ] 280 pounds
[October 26th 2012 ] 275 pounds
[ ] 270 pounds
[ ] 265 pounds
[ ] 260 pounds
[ ] 255 pounds
[ ] 250 pounds
[ ] 245 pounds
[ ] 240 pounds
[ ] 235 pounds
[ ] 230 pounds
[ ] 225 pounds
[ ] 220 pounds
[ ] 215 pounds
[ ] 210 pounds
[ ] 205 pounds
[ ] 200 pounds
[ ] 195 pounds
[ ] 190 pounds
[ ] 185 pounds
[ ] 180 pounds
[ ] 175 pounds
[ ] 170 pounds
[ ] 165 pounds
[ ] 160 pounds
[ ] 155 pounds
[ ] 150 pounds
[ ] 145 pounds
[ ] 140 pounds
[ ] 135 pounds
[ ] 130 pounds
PANT SIZES (START SIZE 24)
[Oct 25th 2012 ] 21/22
[ ] 19/20
[ ] 17/18
[ ] 15/16
[ ] 13/14
[ ] 11/12
[ ] 9/10
[ ] 7/8
[August 4th 2012] Being able to swim 30 minutes non stop.
[ ] Being able to swim 60 min non stop.
[ ] Being able to skip rope for 30 min non stop.
[ ] Fit in all the rides at wonderland
[ ] Complete my 1st semester of school
[ ] Complete my 2nd semester of school
[ ] Be able to wear a two piece comfortably!
[ ] Be able to wear a bikini - in public!
[ ] Completing 30 DS - without missing a day!
[ ] Competeing the 30 DS - no matter how long it takes!
[ ] Completeing my Biggest Loser Kinect Game
[ ] Completeing my Fitness Kinect Game
[ ] Being able to jog for 30 min - no stopping
[ ] Being able to shop at stiches!
[ ] Being able to shop at Bluenotes!
[ ] Being able to shop at Dynamite!
[ ] Being able to buy sexy Lengerie from Lasenza!
WILL ADD MORE AS I THINK OF THEM !
Posted on 7/08/2012 by rocketpopsicles
I figured a good starting post - would be one all about me!
My name is Ashley. I am 19 years old - will be 20 in November.
I completed high school in June 2010 - and went to college in September 2011 for Accounting.
However, I didn't finish my course as I found no interest in it. (It was not what I thought it would be) So I am going back September 2012 - this time for Early Childhood Education/Special Needs.
I have been overweight my entire life.
I have been classified as obese for the better part of my teen years.
When I was little, at my dads house (parents split when I was a few months old) I was allowed to eat anything, and everything. It was really a case of "eat this junk and shut up" all the time. My sister and I both were fat kids. And it seemed to mainly come from that.
In grade 8, I didn't think I was good enough for my boyfriend, and he was my first boyfriend so he was the only thing that mattered at the time. I decided to stop eating since I weighed 10 lbs more than him. Well, after 3 months of eating barely anything, I had lost weight, and lost 4 pant sizes, going from a 11, to a 7. But I ended up just being depressed about myself and we broke up. I was never happy, I started comfot eating, I would harm myself and beat myself up over how useless I felt.
I then started to eat again, and between breaking up in May 2006, and Christmas of grade 9 - 2006 as well - I gained back all the weight, plus more.
I went back up from a 7 to an 13 really quick. I hit 200 pounds. I cried so bad that day and swore I would never get any bigger.. but that didn't happen.
I spent all grade 9 and 10 not careing about my weight, and hit size 16. I didn't notice until it was the summer between grades 10 and 11, when I moved to another part of my town, and had to way to see anyone, and I spent the whole summer eating crap, and playing video games, that when I went through my clothes for grade 11, I realized nothing fit. I was barely able to squeeze into a 18 - but I did it.
I spent all grade 11 and most of 12 at a 18/20 in pants. Failing miserably every time I would diet. I was bullied, had no friends, and barely went to school - but thats how it was for a long time, as I never had friends in school (except when I starved myself , people then talked to me)
After high school, I had no social life, so I was rarely out - and I worked at tim hortons, always eating bad food and drinking coffee with tons of sugar..
Next thing you know, I am 290 pounds - and size 24 in pants.
I cried for a week really.
But It STILL didnt motivate me.
So I have spent a year at this size - now I'm saying goodbye to it.
I don't need to be this weight.
I don't want to be this weight.
I WONT BE THIS WEIGHT.
I will not hit 300 pounds. So far I am at 282 pounds.
I will only go down.
So this is me.
Today - I am fighting for the girl I know is inside me.
I am going to be the person I was meant to be, and not let food control me.
Posted on 7/08/2012 by rocketpopsicles
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