Polarsjewel's Blog

I noticed yesterday a lot of people talking about how other people aren't supportive or try to sabotage "dieting" efforts.. Unless someone is holding you down and jamming that cake, chocolate bar, candy, etc., or whatever it is, down your throat they are not sabotaging you.  You are sabotaging you!!

People, myself included, have to realize that this is a lifestyle, a changing of habits.  The world is not going to stop just because you are trying to lose weight.  Ladies, your TOM is not going to stop just because you are trying to lose weight!  Just because I am trying to lose weight does not mean that I am going to stop socializing with my friends, because there MIGHT be food or alcohol involved.  All it takes is a little proactive thinking.  As an example, we are having a Barbq on Sunday (Canada Day), it will be a pot luck affair.  I know that there will be hot dogs, creamy salads, alcohol and desserts.  I also know that I will have one hot dog, tons of green salad, a drink and a small taste of dessert.  Pre-planning people!  I also know that I will be doing a shit ton of running around the day before and lots of walking the day of.

 Pre-TOM I get cravings, we all get cravings.  But I don't think the world is going to end just because I give in to them.  It's all in how you give in to them.  Don't eat the entire chocolate cake and family size bag of chips, have a small amount of one or the other.  Get out and do some exercise when you have cramps - don't curl up on the couch thinking that you're dying, and then bitch and moan because you gained weight that week.  Get up and take care of yourself!!

I am very fortunate in that my husband is very supportive of my efforts (or my lack thereof).  But I don't blame him when I have a bad day, nor do I blame him when I fall of the wagon, and usually get run over by it.  He is always there to pick me up, dust me off and encourage me back on my way.  It wasn't always like this, when I first starting making my changes, there was confusion, upset and anger.  I was doing away with old habits and bringing new, sweeping changes into the household.  Things are great now; we both eat better (most of the time).  Sometimes, we still eat like 8 year olds.  We both exercise more, we both feel better about ourselves and each other.  I believe that, once your unsupportive *whoever* sees how well you are doing, they will become your biggest cheerleader.

"It's impossible" said pride

"It's risky" said experience

"It's pointless" said reason

"GIVE IT A TRY" whispered the heart

Thanks for reading.....♥

Yesterday, work surprised everyone with a free lunch while they did a "look how fabulous we are" presentation.  There were maybe 40 people at the presentation, they ordered 15 pizzas!  There were also custom made M&M's and custom made cupcakes.  Everything was green and while with our logo on them.  I had 2 pieces of pizza, some M&Ms and a cupcake.  My migraine came back with a vengence after the M&Ms and cupcake.  I did log it all though.

This morning the remnants of the migraine are still there.  I am back to my regularly scheduled eating plan.  I have breakfast and lunch pre-logged and have an idea what I am doing for dinner.  The headache is making it difficult for me, as I said yesterday, I have a really strong phsyiological response to my migraines which makes me want ALL THE TOAST AND BUTTER.  I am sticking to my guns though.  The internal dialogue is pretty spectacular tho.  I can almost visualize the angel on one shoulder and the demon on the other shoulder debating the toast and butter.  I really want to give in to the demon, but I know I'll be unhappy with myself afterwards.

"It's impossible" said pride

"It's risky" said experience

"It's pointless" said reason

"GIVE IT A TRY" whispered the heart

Thanks for reading.....♥

So I took yesterday off because I had a migraine.  I slept most of the morning away.  I didn't log anything because I thought it was going to be a bad food day.  My usual physiological response to migraines is toast and butter.  I don't know why.  I actually managed to eat well yesterday.  Bran flakes and a banana for breakfast, tuna melts for lunch.  I made a really nice pasta with chicken, shrooms and spinach for dinner.  I really should have logged it.  I just didn't want to be in front of the computer yesterday.

 Today, I feel better, still have the remnants of the migraine.  They usually last about 24-36 hours for me  I am back at work and have made it as dark and quiet as possible in my office.  Blinds are shut, windows closed etc.  This would work well, except that they are washing the outside windows today, so there is a diesel cherry picker parked outside idiling.  AND one of the cleaners is smoking which just aggravates me even more.

I have breakfast and lunch planned and packed, have good snacks with me.  I am planning meatloaf, salad  and roasted nugget potatoes for dinner tonight.  I don't know if I will walk or get on the elliptical tonight because I find that if I increase my heart rate, my head hurts more and I really don't want that.

"It's impossible" said pride

"It's risky" said experience

"It's pointless" said reason

"GIVE IT A TRY" whispered the heart

Thanks for reading.....♥

Yesterday wasn't bad, other than that whole working on a Saturday.  Stayed well on track through the day.  Didn't have dinner, but went out for a few drinks with friends.  I made my soon to be famous boozy root beer floats.

Today, as predicted, we did a bunch of running around.  Had bacon and tomato sandwiches for breakfast, did barbq pork chops and salad for dinner tonight.  Breakfast and lunch is prepped for tomorrow.

I started the supplements as recommended by my GP, it'll be interesting to see how the affect me, or if they do anything for me.

I obviously don't have a lot to say tonight, but feel like I need to write on a daily basis.

Thanks for reading....♥

Happy Saturday my friends!  I am sitting at work today, my last Saturday and am bored out of my skull!

Yesterday wasn't a bad day all in all.  I had seafood chowder for lunch because it got cold, windy and rainy.  It made me warm but good Lord was it salty!  Bleh!  I would rather make my own.  Today isn't too bad, I have my bran flakes and almond milk for breakfast and green thai curry with prawns for lunch.  I can't believe how much better I feel when I have bran flakes, compared to, say a bagel.  We're going to a friend's house for a couple of drinks tonight.  Tomorrow is a day off with lots of laundry and chores to keep me busy all day long.  Then back to my regular Monday - Friday shift. 

TOM decided to make an unscheduled appearance, which explains why I have been balancing precariously on the wagon this week.  My GP recommended I try a calcium supplement, Vitamin B6 and chasteberry to see if that will help ease my PMS symptoms *fingers crossed*

Grocery shopping last night went better than expected, I managed to not buy ALL THE ICE CREAM unlike the previous shop, which is a win in my books.   Burned approximately 300 calories (not logged). 

"It's impossible" said pride

"It's risky" said experience

"It's pointless" said reason

'GIVE IT A TRY" whispered the heart

Happy weekend all, and thanks for reading.....♥

My head hangs in shame this morning and I am seriously procrastinating on writing my blog this morning.  I have been balance precariously on the wagon all of this week, and have fallen and gotten up again several times.  You know, like the Japanese proverb "fall 7 times, get up 8 times"  Yesterday was an unmitigated disaster.  I had Starbucks for breakfast, breakfast 2, and lunch.  I stopped tracking yesterday after breakfast.  We ended up having KFC for dinner.  It was just bad.

 Onward and upwards! Today is a new day.  I had my planned breakfast.  I know what I'm having for lunch (avocado orange salad).  It's grocery shopping night *shudder* so I'm not sure what's on the plate for dinner tonight.  I work tomorrow and am off Sunday, then it's back to our regular Monday to Friday schedule. 

Yesterday's breakfast was a bagel and cream cheese from Starbucks.  Not even an hour after I finished it, I was feeling sluggish and really low energy.  I ate again, this time a banana chocolate chip muffin from there.  This should be reason enough to stick with my cereal breakfast.  I had to remind myself how I felt yesterday, this morning, so that I didn't repeat it again, hoping for different results.

It's funny, I know what I have to do to succeed at this lifestyle change.  I have had success before, I have the formula down pat.  I don't know why I think I can change it up after I've had success.  It's like part of my mind goes "you've been successful, why don't you try something completely different and totally stupid"  I need to beat that part of my mind into submission.  I've fallen into that rewarding myself with food, like I'm a dog thing.  WOOF!

"It's impossible" said pride

"It's risky" said experience

"It's pointless" said reason

"GIVE IT A TRY" whispered the heart

Thanks for reading....♥

All in all yesterday was a pretty good day.  I finished off the day 200 calories under my goal, but I also got no exercise. So it was good and it was bad.  It was bad because I am diabetic.  I forget sometimes that I'm diabetic and that I need to eat at regular intervals.  That 200 calories could have been a snack (that I had in my desk) that could have prevented me from crashing while I was making dinner last night.  I have to be more diligent about the afternoon snack.  I have the morning snack down pat...the afternoon one gets lost in the shuffle more often than not.

Today will be good, I have my favourite salad for lunch today; an avocado, an orange, a drizzle of olive oil and a bit of salt.  It is soooo good, all tangy and creamy.  If I had any, I would add 1/2 a cup of quinoa to it, to give me the protein component.  I don't know what we're doing for dinner.  It's the night before groceries, there's not a lot left in the fridge.  It may be take out or it may be breakfast for dinner.  I just don't know yet.

I can't wait for this month to be over!  I am tired of working the weird shifts and having odd days off.  I like my routine of M-F with my weekends to myself.  Also, starting in July I go back to my full hour lunches, so I will be able to start walking again - weather permitting.  My body is tired, my mind is confused, and my spirit is lacking right now.  It's just because of the weird shifts for the past two months.

"It's impossible" said pride

"It's risky" said experience

"It's pointless" said reason

'GIVE IT A TRY" whispered the heart

Thanks for reading...♥

Hi!  i'm back!  i was off work yesterday, so i didn't get a chance to blog or log!  It was kind of nice though, it gave me some time to reflect on the past two weeks.  I've been doing pretty well, logging everything (almost) ;), getting some form of exercise pretty much daily.

Monday i kind of fell off the wagon and back into some old habits.  i got home from work and had toast with peanut butter as a snack - something that i had stopped doing the previous two weeks.  my husband and i decided that Dairy Queen was a good option for dinner.  i had been jonesing for onion rings for ever it seems.  We did well (considering)  We each had a bacon cheesebuger and onion rings, i had a waffle bowl sundae and he had a blizzard.  It was really satisfying.  It seems like that was what we both needed.

i am a huge fan of "cheat" days, although i hate the word "cheat".  It makes me feel like i've failed a test.  i remind myself that this is not a diet, this is a lifestyle change, and i, for one, cannot eat clean-ish every single day.  Every now and again i have to give into the cravings or the binge will be catastrophic!  i had the meal i wanted, logged it, and started a new day on Tuesday.

Tuesday was my day off, so i wasn't here much.  i peeked in to see what people were up to and then went about my business.  i could have easily sat on my ass all day watching cheesy day time TV, hello Dr. Oz!  In fact, that was my original plan.  i slept till 9:30, got up had breakfast, watched American Gypsy Wedding (guilty pleasure).  i spent the rest of the day puttering around the house, putting laundry away, etc, went for a walk and then chilled with my husband in the evening.  i managed to wax the middle of my left eyebrow completely off and painted my toes, then put a crystal heart on each big toe.  i think that was because of American Gypsies.  i needed some bling! LOL. 

Anyway, i'm rambling.  It's Wednesday, i'm back and work and feeling pretty good.  I have breakfast and lunch with me, have a plan for dinner.  It's absolutely gorgeous here today, so there will be a walk at some point.

"It's impossible" said pride

"It's risky" said experience

"It's pointless" said reason

"GIVE IT A TRY" whispered the hear

Thanks for reading......♥

The weekend wasn't so bad.  I logged most of Saturday.  I didn't do anything at all yesterday, except laundry, dinner and lunches for today.  I slept until after 11 yesterday.  I made pancakes and bacon, watched a horse show, Sherlock and True Blood.  I am working today, and am off tomorrow, then work Wed - Sat.  I am trying to figure out what to call today - Fronday, Mriday?  I don't know.  I do know that I will be very happy to sleep in tomorrow.   I think my big plans include a manicure/pedicure.  My poor little toesies aren't so pretty anymore.

 I can tell I am losing weight, yes it's only 4lbs total, but still some of my clothes are already starting to fit differently.  My jeans are looser through the leg.  It feels weird to feels them sliding on my legs instead of clinging to them.  It gives me motivation to go on though.  Every little bit counts. 

I was out of my freezies yesterday, so I "treated" myself to some of my husband's ice cream.  I had maybe a cup.  It was enough to upset my stomach for the rest of the night.  It had to be the ice cream, it couldn't possibley have been the almost stale mini marshmallows that I threw in as well.

Either way, I'm back at it today.  Breakfast and lunch are planned, I have chicken thighs pulled for dinner.

"It's impossible" said pride

"It's risky" said experience

"It's pointless" said reason

'GIVE IT A TRY" whispered the heart.

Thanks for reading.....♥

So, it's Saturday and I got to sleep in until 8AM.  It's going to be a busy day today, birthday party and "adult" party,  There's going to be lots of "on the road" food, and lots of "kids food", hot dogs, chips, etc.  and B IRTHDAY CAKE, I am a sucker for good cake.  There will be tons of water, as most of the food today will be over the top in sodium.  I don't plan to drink too much tonight, maybe two vodka coolers - maximum. 

I weighed in this morning, I am down 2lbs!  Very excited about this.  This will motivate me to keep working on it.  I realize that I am going to have to change the title of my posts soon, I can't be getting out of the starting blocks forever.  I did change the title of my blog.  It makes me giggle.

 I hope you all have a great weekend, and keep fighting the good fight!

I am following my heart and "GIVING IT A TRY"

Thanks for reading......♥