I am going back to work on Monday! This is a great thing and a really bad thing.
I have just been through 10 months that, unfortunately, too many of us can relate to - unemployment. I was laid off last August after being with my company for 12 years. I thought I was 'safe', I was not. That was a HUGE shock - I ignored the warning signs and I lost.
So it took me two months to get up off my a** and get out there and I was thrilled that I quickly found a job in my field. I worked that same a** off for two months trying to prove myself. Then the bottom fell out - they ran out of money..SERIOUSLY!?!?!? WHY the HECK did you hire me knowing you were in financial trouble - IDIOTS! I felt duped. And the worst part (this is where you all come in!) - I gained 15lbs because I was eating out everyday - not just lunch, but LUNCH! I was 'entertaining' customers several days a week and you don't take them to subway or panera, you take them to Bertucci's, Lone Star, Cheesecake Factory (mouth watering..) -- and you gain weight.
So now I have been sitting at home for three months getting the weight off, living at the gym and fitting into my clothes again! YEA!
I am one of the fortunate ones and I count my blessings and will not take it for granted - I start my new job on Monday. I am freaking out because it means 1) being on someone else's schedule for the next month or two during training 2) travelling -which is a huge problem for me and 3) When will I be able to go to the gym? and the list goes on.....How will I manage eating during the day? Will I have the discipline to pack my lunch everyday? I will be back in a situation of entertaining customers, can I now make better decisions on what I order? Even salads at some of these restaurants are high calorie!
I am so glad that I have had the time during my transition to return to my MFP roots where I rejoin old friends and find new friends. It has become a daily habit in the past months and I know I will continue to login to log meals and find support. Thank you MFP for the mobile app!! I find comfort in knowing that I can pop in and add my meals throughout the day. I can do this but.... I need you now more than ever.