Okay, so after a PIG out day yesterday (hey, leave me alone, it was Friday). I decided to get more serious about this again. My goals are not to lose a million pounds or anything, I simply want to tighten up a little bit again, and BE HEALTHY!
Yes, I used to be 'hot' and get hit on regularly. I know I turned heads, but I was more humbled by it than anything. Sure sometimes I used the power I had, but what woman doesn't? This is actually part of how I know I'm a 'grown up' now. I don't care about that anymore. After the last few years and my health issues (some listed on my profile), I am in a grown up relationship, and honestly just miss feeling the confidence that good health brings.
However, getting serious for me DOES NOT mean getting obsessive. I'm not here to cry everytime I over eat. I went through a bad time after my first love broke my heart, and in trying to grasp control of anything I could, I began exercising like a mad woman and obsessing about what I put on my plate. In retrospect, I believe that anyone that obsessive has an eating disorder of some kind. I got down to 135 lbs and looked anorexic (I'm 5'9, and that weight looked AWFUL on me). I don't want to go there again. I believe that awarenss is everything though. The times I've kept track of my calories on here (on and off since Feb/March) my eyes have opened to HOW MUCH I'm really consuming, or what really are the best and worst choices for me when eating out.
I'd love to lose about 15-20 lbs, but I'd be happy with just 10 if I that's what I can manage with no thyroid. My main goal is just being happy and healthy, regardless of numbers on a scale, tape measure, or clothes tag.