Day 6-WANTED TO QUIT?

Posted on 2012-06-25 by jenniferlmartinez

Day 5 I was did want to get up and exercise. I laid there after I hit snooze on my alarm clock, not wanting to get up and do my beloved turbo jam. I thought I . do it after work. So i laid there some more and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. That I knew I would be to tired after work to exercise.

You see I'm a C.N.A. which meand I work in a nursing home. I take care of alot of types of people not just your normal nursing home residents. We have people as young as 25 to all the way 101 years old. Some are there for old age, some have ms, some have cerberil palsy and other types of disabilities. So we go in and help them get out of bed, do their daily cares. Push their wheelchairs to meals and to activites. Help them through out the day. I do this 12 hours a day 3 times a week. I walk fast consteintly bending and stretching, pushing and pulling.

But since I started working out reguarly in the morning; I can honestly say that I feel like I can do my job better. Granted, I'm still tired but not like before. So why would I want to quit working out? The reason was simple for me I would rather feel like crap and give up. No, not really sometimes I'm lazy and would rather lounge on th couch and watch cartoons with my kids. But I would be missing out on life.

The FAT has trapped me in my house. I'm ashamed. But THIS right here is the reason why I'm not going to give up. I dont want to live like this any more!!! I dont want to be the FAT MOM at my kids school activites, I always wonder what other people are thinking of me when I'm there. I shouldnt but I do. I dont want to be one of the fattest people at my work. I dont want to be the fat wife. Granted my husband loves me no matter what. But still when we go out I feel ashamed. I like to go out dancing but wouldnt go becauseof how I feel about myself.

All of these reasons are the WHY I'M NOT QUITING. I keep all of this in my head when I want to quit. I didnt get fat over night or in a week, a month, and so on. So I'll keep on PUSHING MYSELF. To get where I want to be.

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14 comments:

serentity78 wrote 11 months ago:

good for you keep working toward why you are doing this! We all get these feelings as we are trying to eat better and work out. I don't allow being fat to not let me wnjoy my kids but I do hate thinking what am I going to wear....I hate to buy clothes and rarely get them only whats I actually need and really have barely any clothes...in many aspects love the fact I can just wear scrubs to work!

jenniferlmartinez wrote 11 months ago:

I enjoy my kids at the activities too, but that's always on my mind. I love being able to wear scrubs too!

stegs1983 wrote 11 months ago:

Good for you...it's hard to get my butt going somedays...but then I think of the progress I have made and I just can't through that away. We all have days like this, but you handled it like a champ! Great job!

babywoofs wrote 11 months ago:

You are an inspiration!

goron59 wrote 11 months ago:

Good for you!

I'm around day 718 or so, and have thought about quitting from time to time, but glad I didn't.

Keep at it!

fatcatjack wrote 11 months ago:

I have many days I want to quit. Next time you feel that way, look at my profile pic. YOU CAN DO IT!!!

mandimuscles wrote 11 months ago:

I admire your determination!! :) That being said, just remember rest days really can be important, for me, I needed my rest day or my workouts would be some days really bad form, sloppy, not enough pep in me to push until I got a rest day then I was back in full force. That doesn't always go well with "all or nothing" type of people, one day off can lead to sometimes more, but keep logging your food and take a day off when your body says you need it. Just listen to your body, it will tell you what it wants if you just listen! :) Congrats on the hard work!

annacole11 wrote 11 months ago:

You can do it. Don't worry about what others think, do it for you.

genesisbalico wrote 11 months ago:

You can do it, the healthier you get the better you feel in more ways then one.

michellelhartwig wrote 11 months ago:

Keep on working it! Being a CNA is tough, yet thoroughly, rewarding work! Thanks for sharing!

BobSpain wrote 11 months ago:

good job, keep up the good work, it will pay off.

aimeealee wrote 11 months ago:

Keep it up!! I always feel so good after I workout. I also feel keeping fit and strong helps me excell at my job. I lift and restrain dogs all day at a vet clinic. I can do sooo much more than my co-workers because I am strong. I did recently go through a phase that I didn't want to keep pushing myself, I felt fat and ugly, I was ready to give up and stop trying to stay fit. I still worked out but it didn't feel as good as it used to. My Dr. checked my vitamin D. I was low. I am now on prescription strength vit D. Oh My Gosh. I feel sooo much better! I feel good about myself. My workouts feel good again. I don't know if this is your case, but it is worth a check.
Good luck.

kcastro124 wrote 11 months ago:

I can relate to your comment about not doing the things you enjoy anymore because you don't feel comfortable (dancing). I don't even own a bathing suit anymore because I feel so uncomfortable wearing and being seen in one. I used to swim all the time and was a lifeguard when I was younger. Now I want to look good enough to feel comfortable, so I am trying to break some nasty habits. Awareness is key to making a change and it seems from your post that you came to the crossroads and made the right choice: health and fitness over the easy way out or "more of the same." Good job and good luck!

cmopas wrote 11 months ago:

Last year, I "quit" on some level (before MFP) and gained back 10 lbs. of the 30 lbs. I had lost. I'M SO GRATEFUL my daughter told me about, and put the MFP app on my phone. Logging the food, the exercise, 'makes a BIG difference. 'Definitely make better food choices because of MFP. Plan on exercising only on your off days, NO MATTER WHAT. If you can find one friend to talk to, on work days especially, to relieve the stress of the day, then do that too. We need to love and be loved, so look to build relationships too. Positive people will keep you going when it gets rough. I wish you wellness, wholeness, peace... ;-)

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