Day 6-WANTED TO QUIT?
Day 5 I was did want to get up and exercise. I laid there after I hit snooze on my alarm clock, not wanting to get up and do my beloved turbo jam. I thought I . do it after work. So i laid there some more and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. That I knew I would be to tired after work to exercise.
You see I'm a C.N.A. which meand I work in a nursing home. I take care of alot of types of people not just your normal nursing home residents. We have people as young as 25 to all the way 101 years old. Some are there for old age, some have ms, some have cerberil palsy and other types of disabilities. So we go in and help them get out of bed, do their daily cares. Push their wheelchairs to meals and to activites. Help them through out the day. I do this 12 hours a day 3 times a week. I walk fast consteintly bending and stretching, pushing and pulling.
But since I started working out reguarly in the morning; I can honestly say that I feel like I can do my job better. Granted, I'm still tired but not like before. So why would I want to quit working out? The reason was simple for me I would rather feel like crap and give up. No, not really sometimes I'm lazy and would rather lounge on th couch and watch cartoons with my kids. But I would be missing out on life.
The FAT has trapped me in my house. I'm ashamed. But THIS right here is the reason why I'm not going to give up. I dont want to live like this any more!!! I dont want to be the FAT MOM at my kids school activites, I always wonder what other people are thinking of me when I'm there. I shouldnt but I do. I dont want to be one of the fattest people at my work. I dont want to be the fat wife. Granted my husband loves me no matter what. But still when we go out I feel ashamed. I like to go out dancing but wouldnt go becauseof how I feel about myself.
All of these reasons are the WHY I'M NOT QUITING. I keep all of this in my head when I want to quit. I didnt get fat over night or in a week, a month, and so on. So I'll keep on PUSHING MYSELF. To get where I want to be.