Oh my gosh there're so many great things in life that has cholesterol! And sat fats! And trans fats! Gah!! Even the damned whole milk in my morning coffee! *sad face* And butter... oi, that butter... I'm undecided over whether to switch to butter alternatives with all the negative hype over on that side of the fence as well. Nevertheless, bought a tub after reading all the fineprints (and they're seriously small prints *squint*) and making sure to choose the one with virtually zero trans fat and low to negligible sat fat.
Got home early from work yesterday and whipped up a bread, wholewheat. Well, okay, I mixed half Hovis white and half wholewheat. I'm a tad obsessed over breadmaking, I think. Haha.
My slicing skill is improving. LOL! I used this bread (which I have no idea the calorie content of) to make a salmon and garlic and herbed cream cheese (I know, that has cholesterol too, but I need to use it up) sandwich for today's lunch. I'm also reinstating snacks like yogurt and fruit in between meals and hopefully, this healthier manner of eating can bring my figures to the "ideal range".
This morning, I'm a little busy at work, so I'll cheer you on a little later in the day... when most of you would be in bed already. Have a great day, friends!
Posted on 7/31/2012 by gooiyw
So, thanks to my less than stellar health report, I was advised by the doctor to go on a cholesterol lowering diet. This means reducing red meats and shell fish, not frying the saturated fat/ protein sources that I can eat and loading up on oatmeal, vegetables and salads. Here you go... doctor's orders.
I haven't commented on my friends' statuses much (so very sorry, pals) mainly because I'd been reading up on what it all means; high cholesterol, high LDL etc. And the amount of literature and theories and contradictions online is driving me a bit bonkers really. No, I'm not going to discuss it here. The blog might hang on me from data overload (LOL!) But I am still reading up and I guess I really should cut down on my rich food intake (and ice cream) and curries and fried foods (gosh, didn't hit me really until I listed them down) and try to eat "healthier". I'm just a little confused over what healthier should mean. Shouldn't have read so much and just take my doctor's word and advice. But then again, doctors don't know everything. And neither do I.
Continues reading... (I'll get back to cheering you on when I figure this out and get my goals properly defined, friends!)
Posted on 7/30/2012 by gooiyw
Nope, still can't call you Marilyn, you'll always be Mrs Mel to me. Haha. Oh, on to the picture I promised you... my lunch yesterday (well, part of it, you don't need to see a boring photo of a duck confit salad).
Yeap! Potato au gratin... or as the shop called it... "gratin dauphinois" Nope, I definitely cannot pronounce that. Anyway, that was yesterday's lunch. Today's is muted, boring same ol' same ol' because I think I've overdone the richness of my "weight gain" grub in the past couple of days.
Friends who've asked for recipes, here they are:
Cook basmati rice in rice cooker (with one inch of water for absorption lol)
Stirfry cabbage and carrots with garlic, a pinch of sugar, a pinch of salt and some pepper. Add a bit of water if the vege's too dry.
Follow store bought curry paste package's cooking instructions for the curry chicken (yes, I'm embarrassed to say cooking curry from scratch has been disastrous for me in prior experiences, so I stick to the simple, fast and hard to screw up) :P
Deep fried dory: Coat fish with some flour, seasoned with salt and some pepper, place in a wok with some hot cooking oil... Go play with your kids for about 5 minutes, get back to the wok and turn the fish. Go back to playing with your kids and then run back to retrieve fish when
it finally hits you (crap!) and all the cursing and swearing ain't gonna save the fish you realise it has turned a tad too black tanned.
Have a lovely weekend, my dear friends.
Posted on 7/26/2012 by gooiyw
I'm still grappling with the notion that I need to "get fatter", so for friends looking to lose weight, you're going to get a bit sick of my talking about this and everything which is the opposite of what most of you are after, for a while, I'm sorry. But I feel that this is the only way I can convince myself to see where I am and where I need to get to.
I'm already acknowledging some of my physical signs that I haven't mentioned; I can feel my tailbone when I sit on the floor/ a less cushiony surface (something I've never had a "problem" about), my right knee feels weird (it has a popping sound when I walk) and yesterday, it kind of hurt when I squatted to play with my boy, so I'm actually wearing a knee guard today and my bum is actually smaller than my Hubby's LOL. Other than that, I feel fine. I feel fit and strong, thanks to those strength training sessions. I have, however, been questioning myself on whether I should cease my weight lifting and go back to just moderate cardios. You know how they say muscle helps with fat burning? So what if you need to not burn the fat because you need to gain back some?
While we're at that, how do you, after
months years nay a lifetime of being taught that the way to a healthy lifestyle is to lose some weight, get fit and exercise exercise exercise, deal with now having to reverse the 'overdoing' of this lifestyle? I searched the forums on here for discussions of "healthy ways to add fat" and came up with zilch. Okay, I just read that phrase and it sounded oxymoronic! LOL! But is it really? Is fat bad? If I raised that issue up for discussion, I'm pretty sure its going to draw a considerable amount of "Oh, you lucky b****, you don't have a problem" or at the very least "Gain weight healthily... lean mass, not fat".
Even as I try to eat more, I have realised that my diet in the past months comprises of food which most of my family and friends have commented as "soooo healthy". Case in point, my current favourite breakfast (which I had this morning).
By the way, how heavy is 3 heaping tablespoons of oats (before cooking of course)? My guesstimation says between 40-50 grams but like I said, its a guess.
Anyway, since my realisation that adding fat has the same challenges as losing them, I've tried to make certain consciously less "healthful" menu selections. For example, my lunch yesterday at TGI Friday's. My friend, who's dieting, had a salad (something I would have chosen a couple of months ago) and I ordered something called a Tennessee Burger. Looked and tasted sort of like their Jack Daniel's, which was what I chose to log on MFP.
All the major food groups were represented. LOL. But seriously, does that look like 1,700 calories? Because that's what MFP said it was. Okay, so some of you did mention "nevermind counting the calories", the point was I polished that plate off clean. With a couple of dollops of ketchup.
Pre-MFP days, the above lunch was pretty normal (not everyday, but normal). Now, 6 months in, my mind goes against my appetite some... I have this "caloric restriction or you'll blow up into a hippo" mentality that sort of stops me from devouring food without care. Or my brain will justify "for goodness' sake, the cholesterol will kill you!"
So, for discussion's sake, I ask you now, friends: Is there a healthy way to gain fat? I know many of you will say "eat healthy fats!" but, I'm actually thinking this is counter-fattening (I invent alot of words lol). Healthy fat actually makes you lose fat, I think. Give me your thoughts anyway, pals. Appreciate it. :)
Posted on 7/25/2012 by gooiyw
Last minute cancellation of my packing my lunch today because a friend wanted to eat out and repeating yesterday's dinner was going to shock my digestive systems with too much MSG anyway. :P
So, I thought I'd show you what I ate yesterday for brunch instead. :D
Estimating the calories on that was challenging. Calories for pies on MFP vary from the high 200's to 500's. And I don't even know what the white creamlike stuff was on the peas. LOL. Anyways, hope you all enjoy your day. Seize it!
Posted on 7/24/2012 by gooiyw
Tomorrow, I'm having my annual health screening (plus an extra gynecologist appointment), so I was instructed to fast from 10pm tonight until they are done with their poking and prodding tomorrow. Fingers crossed that the whole process won't take too long.
Anyway, before I show you my lunch (and breakfast), I proudly present our very first homebaked bread. Please excuse my bread slicing (lack of) skills. :P
Now that I know the basics, this should get more fun. My 4 year old's already booked that the next bread "must have raisins!" :D
Both breakfast and lunch are here. Breakfast is a parfait (seriously thick greek yogurt, a banana, muesli mix that you can see and a drizzle of honey) and a Starbucks cappuccino. Lunch is... getting boring LOL. I don't think this is enough food for half a day, so I'll probably be munching on some nuts/ bars before lunch and have an ice cream for dessert after that box is emptied into my tummy. I should've packed some of the bread for snacking with some butter. Mmmmmm...
Posted on 7/22/2012 by gooiyw
Well, for breakfast, I had overnight homemade parfait with greek yogurt. I found a small teaspoon in my office drawer that I used for eating. Lunch, on the other hand...
Hmmm... minor problem.
Posted on 7/17/2012 by gooiyw
I don't care how they're cooked, but just plonk one baked, mashed, deep fried or what-have-you's in front of me and I turn into this starch starved neanderthal. Today's lunch is an exact replica of dinner last night (except for the box it's in). There's potatoes in my chicken curry, so I am very happy. :D Well okay, I placed the potatoes beside the veges and not IN the curry... but it came from the curry.
And yes... that also means double starched "potential food coma" lunch. I don't care. I'm going swimming tomorrow... or gym... or swim. -_- Help me decide, friends?
P.S. Do you know what would go great with that curry lunch? A blob of unflavoured yogurt. Mmmmm... Just switched on my yogurt hunting mode. Haha!
Posted on 7/16/2012 by gooiyw
Haha! No pun intended. I don't think I'll have the energy to upload a picture of every single thing I eat, but let me try my lunch at least, okay?
Lunch was a 3 course meal just because I had to beat this Monday blues to smithereens. So here goes. First course, some sort of apple, celery, walnut salad with prawns. I ate it with some slices of freshly baked multigrain bread.
Main course was some chicken and root vegetable stew topped with parmesan cheese.
And since "the cow has already been slaughtered" (it's a chinese saying for 'it's too late to turn back'), dessert was a banana caramel cake with Haagen Daz. :)
So, how much calories do you reckon was in my Monday unblue-me lunch?
Posted on 7/15/2012 by gooiyw
Amenorrhea. I would not have believed it if the doctor didn't write it down on his diagnostic card that had my name on it. Even with his barely legible doctor's scribbling, I knew what he was writing down. But a part of me still argued,"That's associated with eating disorders... amongst other things. Me?! Eating disorder?! Pigs are flying now??"
So, I asked him and he said,"Amenorrhea. The absence of your menstrual period." There it was. I've been diagnosed. Then he told me this was beyond his realm of expertise. He will have to refer me to a specialist. He suspects they'll give me some hormone balancing pills and... I don't remember what else he said beyond that. In my mind, I was dealing with a new reality. One I had ignored and even brushed aside as ridiculous before. It's now something I need to admit to. The symptoms (at least some of the major ones) are in my face, saying 'are you going to deny why you're having this now? After its been diagnosed?'
I've spent the best part of yesterday soul searching about the purpose of my doing what I've committed myself to these past months. Waking up before the rest of the sane world, hitting the gym or the pool and working my ass off just so to see the scale cheer me on. Have I been over exercising? There's that one question. And then, there's my food intake. My friends have been seeing amazing caloric intake coming from my diary. The truth is, I've been estimating (and many of you know this) and:
1. Estimations are rough guesses
2. When they say,"1 portion" what does that even mean? What's an American portion verses a Malaysian one? How much is it? Sometimes when I feel like I've eaten quite a bit of something, I'd even put in 1.5 portions and the calories, added up, exploded.
3. Sometimes, one large bite of something counted as "half a cup"... for me. It's deliberate over estimation, because I justified that MFP burn figures could be overestimated as well.
So, there it is. My confession. Have I been eating? Hell yes. But perhaps not to the extent that my diary has been boasting I have. At least not that I can estimate.
Now the next question I need to ask myself and get a truthful answer on. Do I have an eating disorder? I am not a psychologist, but I know myself best. I can internalize and self analyse if I allow myself to talk to myself enough. Know what I mean? So the whole of yesterday, I had a debate with myself.
"No way. It must all be exercise related. Maybe I've overdone the intensity of my workouts... Remember those 800-1000 ish burns days?! Those were crazy! Well, I've cut back already. I'm now at 40 laps per swim verses my high of 80 on weekends before. Are you listening to yourself?! 40 is someone else's life goal! Wait, get back to your food... You've been obsessive about taking a mental picture of everything you eat, you overestimate your calorie intake, so you could very well be under eating all these time!"
There it was. Do I have an eating disorder? Maybe not in the strictest sense of the word, but I do have a problem. And I know how to fix this. I have to stop calorie counting... At least for a while. I have to stop obsessing that I can only add stone fruits to my morning oatmeal because bananas are no good for weight loss... Because I have lost way too much weight. I now have a medical complication because I have lost too much weight.
So, friends who are reading this... I must first apologize. I have led you on on some things. I have been hypocritical in some ways. And I need to stop logging my meals until I stop obsessing about how much calories they carry. I'm going to get my head in order, my weight in order and my body fat percentage in order. One of the reasons for Amenorrhea is too low a bodyfat percentage for women. Women need a certain amount of body fat for their essential bodily functions to work. Among these is the body's reproductive organs, and in my obsessive pursuit of a flat tummy (I've got that) and six pack abs (I actually can see them after workouts), I have lost track of what I'm doing this for. Health. My body is telling me it's shutting down something because I'd been overdoing it.
Next week, I'll go and see my gynecologist and get this properly diagnosed and seek her advice. I really hope it won't have to come down to drugs. I hate having to take any pill. I will also eat more... More than more. I want to fill out my clothes again and look at least a bit healthier than I'm sure I look now. Colleagues have commented that I look like a teenager now. :(
I will still log on and hope I still have friends after this. I also hope to cheer all of you on your journeys. I am still obsessed with food porn, so this blog will get updated one way or another. LOL!
P.S. I'm sorry this post has nothing to do with the purpose I started this blog. But I needed to write this down... It's just how I deal. Love you all. :)
Posted on 7/13/2012 by gooiyw
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