i couldn't believe the scale today  

it was as if i was an imposter standing in the way.

i hesitated to get on

not knowing the outcome, and not wanting the 'alarm'.

but enough is enough and i just did it---

i had to see

was i finally facing the fear

that is always inside of me

internally?

i then got on

at first did not look down.

i hesitated and then 

felt an internal frown.

BUT then i looked and opened my eyes

and to my amazement i looked at the numbers in surprise!

i sighed in relief

i actually danced a wee dance

and i thanked God above for giving me 

the courage to finally give myself a chance

of which there is absolutely and no way

of turning back

especially after today!!