WRONG!!!! JUST PLAIN WRONG .
Today I stepped on the scale. Our scale hasn’t had batteries in it in about 6 months, finally I found some and put them in. What I did next shocked me. I weighed myself and discovered I currently weigh more than I have in my entire life!! 281lbs. OMG!!! I just about puked ( I would have lost a few that way). I knew I had put on a little weight but wow, I have never wanted to weigh this much. I have never weighed this much. I have been on MFP for a couple years and as long as I stay with it I tend to lose weight and as long as I don’t end up weighing more than my starting weight from years ago, I figure “well at least I haven’t gone over!!” WRONG!!!!
I am starting over and my hubby is too and my kids will ride along. My daughter has a BMI of 21.4. This is because of me. Because I can’t control MY weight and MY eating , she thinks this is how it should be. WRONG!!!! I took her and my son to the store the other day and let them each pick out a snack, my 3year old son picked out an apple, I thought I would have one too, then my daughter asked if she could have something warm. I told her sure. She picked out batterfried cheesecurds. I didn’t even blink…..until after she was eating them. I realized what I had done.
I know I have said many times before that I am going to change and things are going to be better, but isn’t that what all of us have said many times before we finally reach the exact moment? I know I have let some of my MFP pals down, I don’t blame you for un-friending me, I would do the same, as a matter of fact I have! But now I need new friends. Ones that are struggling just like me so I can gain support and return what is given to me. Ones who are successful so I know I can do it. I am not going to lie. I will struggle. I will probably fall off the wagon. But I promise to check in EVERY day. I promise to read your kind and not so kind words of encouragement and your own frustrations and support you. I promise to read and enjoy your successes by learning from them rather than be jealous. But most of all I promise to be a friend and be there in the good and the bad times.
Please give me a thumbs up if you accept my agreement. Please be my friend if you will be there when things are rough for me and when they are great but mostly there when I need you the most. Please comment if you have any words of encouragement or reminders to the fact that I CAN DO THIS!!! But I can’t do it alone.
Here we go J