OR ENOUGH OF TOO MUCH?
SO: in a dramatic moment of rebellion against the tyranny of the scales and the paucity of my diet, I cast off the shackles of MFP and broke the bonds of the just-say-no mentality. I made a squinty-eyed,, steely-jawed, cold-blooded, absolutely serious decision to eat anything and everything I might want in whatever quantity I might want.. Liberation Day. (all that from a fleeting fantasy of throwing a raw egg against the wall. did I say it was dramatic?)
SO HERE'S HOW IT WENT: sausage crumbled in gravy (powdered skim milk) over TWO slices of toast (50 cals. apiece.)
lunch at the new Rail Head (locally owned and operated, non-franchise - those folks CARE) and, though there were more interesting and probably healthier choices available, I had my teeth set for a Hamburger. it was an absolute delight. french fries were made from real potatoes - not hand cut, but shot through some kind of french frie making machine, but at least they started with real potatoes.
finished the day at the studio and started to leave town. wait - a - minnit. I promised myself a cappucino chocolate chunk frozen yogurt. funny. didn't really want it. but I Promised. so I turned and went back. got it. it was good. better than okay, but not quite wonderful.
then I started thinking about dinner. then I forgot about it.
and here I am unwatched and unsupervised. alone - with the Kahlua and vodka, the jelly beans. and the green light is ON. (now I don't want any of you to think I ain't got no class. EVERY body knows you don't have jelly beans with black russians. jelly beans go with gin. ) I had them at different times.
AND HERE'S THE BOTTOM LINE: I was darn close to my calorie goal. would probably have made it if I had left off the frozen yogurt, which I didn't really really want anyway - or the black russian, which I did. and I guess I could have left off the jelly beans. naaah. anyway, I was close.
NO, THIS IS THE BOTTOM LINE: close to goal on Liberation Day? go figure. could it be that I am becoming Moderate? could I actually be coming to the point that I PREFER Moderation? Normal ! Moderate ! what next???
this really IS a lifestyle change.