The Wheels Keep Turnin'
It's been about two and a half months since I've touched a dumbbell. I feel like I've just completely regressed since March 10th, which is when I strained/pulled the muscles in my upper back which work the rotator cuff. My cardio habits have gone from 5-6 days a week, down to 2 days if I'm lucky. I am always so sore and just feel like every part of me should have an "out of service" sign attached. My eating isn't atrocius, but it isn't pretty either. And it's never been "clean". Something I really must work harder to focus on. I even thought of signing up for Nutrisystem just because it's portion controlled and mostly decent (with the exception of probably the sodium).
I feel that because I've been hanging around at the same weight since about July of last year, I've just gotten more and more frustrated to the point of giving up. But I won't completely quit. I've never been a quitter. I may not be the best at something, but the one thing I've always been proud of saying about myself is "you CAN'T make ME quit!" And I'm not about to let that start now.
I can say that my metabolism has probably adjusted back to a less than appreciated level, and that will hopefully allow me to see some new progress. I plan to also start doing my Friday weigh-ins again, good or bad. I had stopped for a while because I don't like the "artificial" loss (as I call it) when I go up and then drop back down. But I will start doing that again, just as a motivator.
That being said, I do feel that I have "fallen off the wagon" and need to grab hold of one of those leather straps dangling off the back of the wagon so that I can pull myself back up. I'm going to use this week to try and get things out of my system and reset for the first full week of June next week. My mindset will be "go HARD or go HOME!" going forward.
I will try and ease back into the dumbbells to make sure I don't stress the already stressed muscles (especially on my left side due to a nerve impingement) and I will mix my "cardio" up. Instead of trying to do jogging intervals, I will try and press myself a bit when I do intervals... but this time, I will also rotate days between intervals and start doing some moderate walking to try and get into and stay in that "fat burning" zone, as opposed to the cardio zone. But I need to ensure my cardio is still good for my upcoming fight... especially since the cardio is the biggest factor.
I CAN do this. I KNOW it... and more importantly... I BELIEVE IT!