You know it's odd. I used to sit on my couch or lay on my bed and daydream of how I wanted my life to be.
I would picture having lost a ton of weight until I was practically unrecognizable as the Fat Girl I'd once been. Everything was toned and sleek and my hair was this long beautiful sheet down my back that emphasized how slim by new hips were. My eyes sparkled with new life and my smile was whiter, brighter and alluring.
I'd lay there, picturing how people would react. The men that had never once looked at me would now drool and act like fools. The girls who had dismissed me would glare at me enviously while all the men flocked around me.
I'd picture myself running effortlessly down the pavement, working up a sweat and loving it. I'd be at dinner and be able to eat one little bite of cheesecake and then claim to be too full to eat anymore.
And after the daydream ended I'd be so sad, so depressed that I'd grab something to eat and turn on the tv to forget about having ever had such a dream because in my mind, it would NEVER happen.
I've been overweight since I was young child. I have snuck food and pigged out when no one was looking. I always ate really slowly in front of people when we'd go out to eat and then take the food home for 'lunch tomorrow' when actually I just couldn't wait to reheat it up and devour it as soon as no one was there to witness it.
Then one day I started counting calories with MFP. I didn't believe it would work. I didn't think anything would ever help me get rid of the weight. But I decided, "What the hell" and gave it a shot. For two weeks I half-assed the calorie counts and water intakes and then stepped on the scale. I'd lost FOUR pounds. Wait.. what?!
I got off the scale. Got back on. Yup, FOUR pounds.
...could this ACTUALLY work? No.. no.. it couldn't. Not for ME. But the proof was there. So I got a little more serious about it. Ate more fruit and vegetables.
All of a sudden I was under 300lbs the scale was blinking 299 at me and I'd lost NINE lbs in four weeks. And that's when it hit me.. I CAN DO THIS.
I've lost 35lbs since February 2011, and 24 of those pounds have been shed in the last 75 days. MFP works. It works for me. It can work for you.
I'm not excercising all that much. Maybe twice a week for a half hour to an hour at a time. Mostly walking. I plan on starting crunches and stair climbing soon. Maybe buy a fitness dvd from ebay. But I'm making this happen. For the first time in 29 years I am watching myself get SMALLER instead of larger.
I'd call it a miracle except it's not. It's about paying attention to what goes in your body and what comes out of it. It's about choosing something healthy when all I really want is a big slab of triple chocolate cake or some Ben & Jerry's icecream.
We can do this. Together!