This morning I ate the last few beans from my jellybean jar that held about 6 pounds of gormet jellybeans... Saturday is had six pounds worth of beans.

This is my binge food and it HAS to stop. I feel groggy and rundown and depressed eating these little bombs of dye and cornsurup .  Once I start I can't stop, I inhale them.

I threw away the jar I keep them in this morning.  It feels good knowning I am trying to get a handle on this.

My loving family and friends think because I am thin that me eating them like that is not a problem. But it's really messing with my head and it's can't be good for me but they excuse it because I eat well because of my food allergies it's almost just fruit,veggies and meat most times with rice or potatoes now and then.

I usally start eating when I am depressed or lonely (yes I still get lonely even tho I have a live in boyfriend)and I miss  my sisters and brother. I feel like I am so dectached somtimes and that makes me feel selfish.

Anyway it's not healthy and I am done with it. Offically!