I'm usually a stress eater, normally when things get tough or life gets in the way and everything seems to fall apart around me, I eat and eat and eat, just to fill that void, I guess. I'm also an emotional eater, usually. This all has a point, I promise.

So Wednesday I started my new job, went in and met my trainer, she was awesome. I really connected with her and felt pretty confident but it's never easy being the new girl. Especially in a restaurant establishment when there are 6-10 wait staff on duty at a time. I honestly believe that Applebee's is bigger then Buffalo Wild wings. I did good at BWW, I just hated the management. I still did pretty good that night. For a newbi to their system I felt proud of myself. 

Then comes Thursday night, crap rolled down hill. It was karaoke night and I felt out of my element, I guess. Which is odd, I like to sing, I love music, I love to dance in my own home, but I felt awkward. I just stood there for the most part, not much my trainer could do that night, all she had was bar tops and all anyone ordered was drinks. You can only put in so many drinks before you know them all. I think when I really begin to feel out of place, was when the wobble came on and the entire wait staff besides the few who were actually busy, were out there doing the dance. I don't know this dance so I guess I felt awkward. A friend who works there, I grew up with her, she kinda made me feel a little better. She said that it's not required which I knew this but if I just jump on in, it'll be fun and I'll pick it up in no time. I might not jump in for a little while, but I'm sure eventually I will. 

Friday night, which was last night, I got there at 6 instead of 9pm like on Thursday, so before karaoke. I started by doing 2 tests, one of which I should have done the following night, but my trainer didn't do that so I caught up. Then I took a few orders and got to actually do more. I felt like I was getting it, I work a lot better when I can actually do things. My trainer and I were punching things into the computer for 1 table and then another sits down, she said, "How about you go take their drink order and greet them." I walked on over, and introduced myself, and let them know that this was my 3rd day and I'm training. That really broke the ice with them, the older man at the table says "I'll break you in real good." He was not being sexest or anything, he meant like he is difficult but he really wasn't. So I begin by asking "So who is gonna start off right tonight with maybe one of our perfect margarita's?" they laughed and the older man says "Hun, do I look like a margarita drinker?" I said "Ya never know around here, but if not then how about something stronger? How about some rum and coke or Jack and coke?" He said "Now you're talking!" he was smiling and I was smiling. He asked for a certain kind of Jack, I asked if he would like to make it a double? He at first said "Oh no, just a single" I jokingly said "Oh? You're to manly for the rita but can't handle the double? I see.." I winked and giggled. He laughed and said "ahhh, I like you!". Anyway's I ended up talking both of the guys into a double in their drinks and toward the end they asked if they could tip me or if they have to tip my trainer. I told them while training I make Min wage instead of the $2.13 so it has to go to her, but if they come back next week, ask for my section and they can tip me as much as they wish. I ended up making my trainer $20.00 off that table hehe. Yup I think I am starting to relax. However it's never been the customers to make me feel uncomfortable, it's just the new girl thing. 

Well lately even stressed I'm not hungry, emotional, I'm not hungry. In fact I'm totally turned off to food that the thought of it makes me gag. Not sure that's a good thing but meah. It's better I think then eating myself sick. Well my husband and I have been kinda distance the past week. I figured it was just me working late hours neither of us are use to. Last night I got off kinda early and figured we'd get a little time in before our oldest got home. I came in and he said "Want to watch a movie?" I was excited and said "I'd love to." I waited 2 hours and I had to get up and be at work by 10 this morning. He was playing a game on the computer, I kept hearing "10 mins" I didn't say nothing just let him go on and play. Finally I said "Well that was the longest 10 minutes." he was in the zone, didn't hear me. I just sat there waited, then finally said "Well if we're not going to watch a movie, I need to go to bed." he finally heard me and said "No wait, I'm sorry I lost track of time." I just let it roll off. We watched a movie, he was distance, after it was over he went back to his game, didn't say a word to me. 1am came and I was like "I'm going to bed." Hoping maybe he'd join me *wink*. Nope, he was still playing his game. Honestly I was kinda pissed, all week he's put me off for his game. I'm sure that's played a part in my not being able to sleep that well last night, I was upset with him. He came to bed about an hour later and woke me up to ask me if I would trade him mouses because his mouse wasn't good for his game. I told him no, not because I was mad but because I hate his mouse. So today he went out and spent $50 on a new mouse. Anyway's today has been better in the husband department, I'm just so exhausted though I can't hardly see straight. I can't go to bed till I call my job, I can't call my job till 11 tonight. The manager who makes out the schedule had some flaws in his schedule and had to redo it so it's not out like it normally would be, so he asked me if I'd call him at 11 to find out when they need me in next. 

Today has been a long day, not a bad day but a long day. I went in to work at 10 this morning, I'm not use to working more then 3 or 4 hours a shift. I thought since I was training I'd be off around 2, but after they let my trainer go, they asked me if I was ready to go at it? I was like "Sure" I'm not about to pass up making some money. So I spent 2 hours waiting tables all on my own, and I did pretty good. Which I knew I would, that's my element. I even got the computer down pretty good, didn't need any help. 

Ok well that's that. I'm off! Night!!!