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The Bucket List!

Mon, 13 May 2013 04:30:49 GMT

I have to say I haven't been very enthusiastic about being apart of the Mind over Matter Challenge. There are many reasons for this, none of which I'm willing to share with the public. Without thinking I agreed to it when my husband asked. I always keep my word, so here I am. One of our challenges this week is a 100 count weight lost bucket list. This is mine;

Get healthy.
Feel better about myself.
I started because I figure quitting smoking was harder than losing weight. (I'm smoke free yes but still fat!)
To be able to look into the mirror and see the girl I once was.
To be able to look into the mirror and see the woman my husband claims me to be.
To feel and look wonderful for myself.
To feel and look wonderful for my family.
To maybe one day have babies.
To be able to run and play with those babies.
To walk up the stairs and not have to stop to catch my breath.
To live longer.
To go dancing without feeling like a hippo!
To wear more heels.
To get into that LITTLE black dress. (The big one is like a tent)
To prove to myself that I can do it.
To feel comfortable in front of the camera.
I'd like to be able to buy clothes anywhere.
To get into those concert tee shirts! (I love Rascal Flatts!)
I'd like to look at fat people and not have to wonder if I look like that.
I'm like to feel comfortable running in the park.
I'd like to be able to share the dreaded number (my weight) and not care what anyone thinks.
I'd like to get over this depressing depression because it is really depressing me!
I'd like to have a couple of drinks without it being a special occasion.
When I think I'm so cute, I'd like to believe I'm really cute.
I want to get back into my jean skirt.
I would like to do at least one chin up.
Maybe even climb the rope!
I'd like to sneeze when the feeling comes and no pee a little.
I always enjoyed canoeing and would like to not rock the boat!
To drive without a seat belt extender would be nice.
I want a new bike without worrying about weight limits.
Wear a bikini.
Have a decent pair of cowboy boots that don't look like boats.
To have better legs!
Create some sexy thigh muscles!
Oh I have a great ass but hey everything can be improved!
To have a little more sexual confidence (cowgirl UP!)
He should have kissed me, he should have pushed me up against the wall!
Positions (No explanation needed!)
The bed should squeak from over use only. (Right now its from both that and the two fatty's going at it. (Sorry baby!)
To be able to live longer and help my mother more.
To move faster and with more ease.
To keep my mobility.
To spend less money on clothes, (covering this body is expensive!)
To buy more handbags, totes, clutches! (Nothing to do with weight loss but still)
To be a little less afraid of coming down the mountains we climb!
I love elliptical machines, I would like to buy one for the house and again not worry about weight limits.
I'd like to stop having panic attacks in public!
Horseback riding? Yes, but that's a camel. Oh I did that?
Ballroom dancing would be fun!
Ride a zip line!
Maybe I would like rock climbing too!
I'm sure my household might object, I'd like to become a vegetarian!
Learn how to not care what others think of me!
Learn to forgive myself.
Realize that not everyone is perfect, (everyone knows I'm not! Yikes!)
If I do have kids I'd like to pass on a healthy and happy way of life.
Feel good enough to have a reading in front of a group of one of my best selling novels!
I'd like to start a community garden to help feed the hungry!
Feel beautiful enough to start my own YouTube cooking show?
Write a healthy cookbook. (Already working on it!)
I'd definitely like to travel more, locally and around the world.
I don't want to be a statistic (both heart disease and diabetes run in my family)
To renew my wedding vows on a beach in San Diego wearing a little soft cotton dress that blows in the wind.
I have hopes to encourage my parents to eat better.
Get all achievements on the Xbox Dance Central and Zumba games!
I want to get inside my weight scale and stay there successfully!
Killer Abs, yeah I'd like a set of those!
I want to be able to do the splits.
I'd like to get back into Yoga. (It's been a long time and I don't remember the positions anymore.)
I want to feel more comfortable in my body, especially when in public.
Have a Mexican night out without worrying about how many calories I'm inhaling! I love Mexican!
I'd like to add a little more color to my wardrobe! (Black is slimming and boring!)
I never imagined coming this far, and therefore would like to go farther!
I want to build my stamina.
I want to build my willpower.
I want never give up!
I don't want to be afraid to order what I want in a restaurant.
I'd like to be able to go to a public pool or the beach and not keep a cover up on until I'm under water.
Where is my neck? Damn chins!
I'd like to have a sexy side tattoo down my torso! (Big goal perhaps?)
A moonlight Hot-Air Balloon ride would be nice. (Unsure if there is a weight limit?)
Am I the attractive equal to my husband in public?
Maybe build a platform for a Nature Hiking and Reading Day Camp for children!
I'd rather move without back pain. (A major problem for me.)
Playing a few games of Beach Volleyball, would be wonderful.
I'd like to sleep through the night, flat on my back and be comfortable.
I'd like to have a BMI within normal range.
Lose 50 lbs.
Lose 75 lbs.
Lose 100 lbs.
Lose 125 lbs.
Lose 150 lbs.
Lose 200 lbs.
Reach my goal weight.
I'd really like to look down and see my boobs and not my belly too!
I'd like to no longer have to worry about fitting into chairs, everywhere I go.
I just really need more confidence in myself (all faucets of life).
I'm sexy, but I want to know it?!
LIVE!

It Feels Good!

Wed, 30 May 2012 01:56:36 GMT

*Do you know what it feels like to finally wear that little black dress?

*Do you know what it feels like to finally get in the car and not be disgusted by your stomach pressing up against the steering wheel?

*Do you know what it feels like to look in the mirror and finally see the who you are suppose to be?

That's me. I can't wait till I put on my little black dress, and it actually be little compared to other dresses that I own. I do know how it feels to get in the car and not need a seatbelt extender just to follow the law and I'm here to tell you it makes me smile. When I look in the mirror, I see a hint of beautiful peeking back at me. This is the beautiful that my husband and my sister sees but I never have. It's coming in slowly but it's definitely coming. And it is because of these things that I continue on my journey. I look forward to getting up and getting my body moving. Beforehand, before switching to a healthy lifestyle the only reason I would get up in the morning is to go to work and even then I didn't really want to. I look forward to burning calories and logging what I ate that day because it has truly helped me see the difference.

So for those of you who think that maybe this isn't worth the hard work you need to put into it, it is worth it. This is adding years to my life and it will for you as well. So continue on, push yourself so you can see the beauty that everyone else sees in you already.

Till the next time...

And so it begins...

Sat, 26 May 2012 08:08:31 GMT

This is just a hello post. My husband convinced me to start a blog on here like I don't already have two other blogs, plus a forum to run, plus silly applications to play over on facebook, plus exercising and eating healthy, plus doing my daily cleaning rituals, plus making dinner everyday because if I don't do it, I don't think it is being done right. Plus I have 3, yes three novels, 2 short stories, a children's series and poetry inbetween plus, plus, plus... But I love him anyway...

So here I am and I hope that you will stop by when I actually decide to get my rear in gear and spend time writing on here.

Till then...

The Garden :)

Sat, 26 May 2012 08:07:11 GMT

A few years back I decided to try my hand at gardening. My father who is from Mississippi has an incredible green thumb and I wanted to see if maybe I had a little of that. Of course since he became a family man he only grew an occasional house plant but he was so great at it, it inspired me. I've always heard things taste better when you grow them by yourself and boy there is a lot of truth in that. So we got 4 raised garden beds and of course that first year we were very overzealous with planting the seeds. There were so many veggies in each of the beds I didn't think anything would grow, but they did and that tasted so amazing!

I knew I had found something I was good at and I was excited about something which was something I hadn't been feeling in quite a while. That first year the garden flourished, we had a lot of veggies, even some to spare for the neighbors who often commented on the beautiful things growing in our backyard.Second year we didn't do as well as we hoped. We tried a lot of new things that we didn't really know how to grow but hey that is how we learn. So somethings grew and somethings didn't.

This is our third year, and things are growing like the first year. Of course, me having OCD about cleaning and things being tidy, that is hard to do in a backyard where our three dogs (yes we have a zoo in this house (three cats too!)) play and constantly break things. The dogs have a lot to do with why the garden didn't grow second year. We put up a plastic net like fencing that I thought would be good enough but apparently our boxer mixed has a plastic fencing fetish that eventually turned into a craving for his own raw veggie feast. He didn't bother the herbs though. Guess he didn't need any seasoning.

Like I said this is our third year and I politely asked my husband (Simon) and my sister (Juju) for new sturdy fencing to protect our harvest. It still needs some work but we have done such a wonderful job so far I don't mind that other things aren't done. We are super excited about this year's produce and can't wait to start harvesting.

The saplings have sprouted, the saplings have sprouted! I'm a happy girl!!

What a Great Day!!

Sat, 26 May 2012 07:57:33 GMT

On May 16th, 19.... Hey I'm not telling you my age. Well my birthday is May 16th and this birthday was the greatest birthday ever! I had such a lovely time, it was truly a perfect day for me. My husband Simon and my sister Julie spent the day outside in the sun, grilling, gaming and laughing and having a sweet time. The food was excellent (Thank you honey) The company even more so. We watered the garden, watched the dogs play, a little rough at times but not too bad. We listened to music and played some board games. Now you may not think this is a big deal, but for us it definitely is! We barely get to spend time together, working or exercising or running errands, life just gets in the way sometimes, but not that day. As I sit here and write this I wish I could turn back time. (Oh ok, I really would like some more of those grill roasted veggies. They were fantastic!!

Just looking at that picture gets me all tingly! And hey it's healthy right? So I should just go for it! -- No I did not just lick the screen of my laptop! Stop judging me or I'll cry. I guess it's a good thing I cleaned the screen today, I mean do you know how many germs are on most computer screens? Anyway back to the veggies. (Wipes drool from the side of my mouth.) Who the hell orgasms over veggies? Not me!

On the menu for my birthday, for lunch we had chicken wings and oh la la veggies. (Damn things are hunting me I swear). Delicious! Again, thank you honey.

For dinner we had ribs? We are suppose to be on a diet. Well we measured and they are actually not bad in calories. Guess what? Yes, it is true, you can have anything your little heart desires, as long as it is in moderation. They were right! (By they I mean the vicous skinny people who can control their garlic bread intake.) MMmmm garlic bread (slaps self) back on track now. For dinner we had ribs, potato salad (homemade of course), baked beans (also homemade) and grilled corn (Simon burnt it!) and it was all just so fantastic. The weather was beautiful.

We played games and listened to music and when the sun started setting we lit a fire and our tiki torches and bam everything was seriously perfect. I don't much care for the word perfect (it's actually a pet peeve of mine.) Nothing can be perfect, but this day was just that. Perfect.

Got a new MP3 player for my tunes while cleaning, exercising, shaking it. The best gift of all, Rascal Flatts tickets!! Woo woo, haven't seen them live since 95, but I will be seeing them soon. Really can't wait for the concert.

Life is good. Stop licking the damn computer screen people, it's a picture!

Till next time...

I'm Just Saying!

Sat, 26 May 2012 04:01:30 GMT

Someone once said:

If wishes and buts were clusters of nuts, we'd all have a bowl of granola.