Living in the Moment...My AH HA Moment!
So, I woke up this morning emotionally spent. I felt really lonely. Decided to take a moment to reflect on why this was.
In the last month, I have:
- Diversified my cardio activity, incorporating an Arc trainer into my weight routine three days a week
- Continue to get heart healthy fit as my cardio fitness continues to improve
- Changed my weight routine
- Continued to diversity my vegetable and fruit choices, eating mango, jicama and edamame (my new chips! realized I like crunchy foods...go figure!)
- Met four different guys and gone out for dates with at least three of them
- Went through some emotional and professional challenges on my job
- Took a trip to Milwaukee
- Went to at least two evening work-related functions
- attended two cultural events which nurtured my African-American heritage and fed my artistic soul
- attended a seminar at my old church which was a little challenging but good
- Was the lead singer on a new piece for Easter which was challenging to learn
- Oh yeah, and lost some weight
So, why do I feel so lonely?
I am not sure. Maybe it's because I was hoping that one of the guys that I went out with would be someone that I connected with (and vice versa?)
Do I feel less attractive because none of the dates really worked out?
Was it that when I woke up today that I didn't really have anything to do? I am going to attend a women's meeting this morning...no pressure and lots of connections with other women who share my spiritual values.
Maybe because I am just tired. Maybe today I won't workout. Maybe I will just spend some time with me. All of these activities have been wonderful. However, all have required quite a bit of energy--even the trying times at work have really worked out okay.
As I type this I have almost complete silence in my apartment. I have all windows up and am letting the fresh, spring air permeate my dwelling place. The birds are chirping, and it's very, very peaceful.
I close my eyes for a moment---allowing my senses to guide me. I take a few deep breaths and learn to just be in the moment.
That's when it hit me.
Fabulocity---just be in the moment.
Don't try to figure everything out.
Just be.
Everything with work out.
Just take time to enjoy the journey and be grateful for the process.
Have a blessed day everyone!
Posted on 2011-05-07 by Fabulocity
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