"This Time"
I am seeing it alot. "This time I am going to......"
I don't have anymore "this times." I am not starting over.
I am correcting my course as I go. Honestly, I understand the psychology and why people do this. But no more for me. I will tell you why. It is a way to ignore the past. I have already ignored the past and had to start over, and start over, and start over.
I am looking at my short comings differently now. As I said I am not starting over anymore. I am going to learn from the things that don't work. I don't have any failures, just things that didn't work. I have grown up in terms of taking care of my body.
That means I have to change how I think about things like binges and times where I eat more than I had intended. These events have causes. I have to face and deal with them.
The clever sayings are nice and help on a down day. But no clever statement will make me fit. Hard work and eating right will do that. Nothing else. And that is where I am. A bad day doesn't make a bad week. And you can only correct current and future behavior. So there is no wallowing in self induced pity, anger, or hopelessness. Just an evaluation of what I am doing and adjust accordingly.
Getting to this point is a process.
It is not where you start. You start where it is kind of exciting, scary, desperate. That is where I started. And I believe that when we start again and say, "This Time" we are trying to capture some of that excitment. But eventually it just becomes the way you live. Not exciting, nothing out of the normal way of day-to-day life. And it can get boring and tedious like other aspects of our lives. But really, that is a win.
So I am happy to support those that are not where I am. It keeps me thinking about all the things we face. But realize that we are not all at the same point.
Make a great day!



Folding is for losers! So I grind it out and sometimes I surprised how good I feel about myself the next day for doing it anyway.
Keep rocking on dispensing the humor with the wisdom. Enjoy NC as much as possible.
i did *just* post a comment on a group challenge where i did use the verbiage "this time". it wasn't what i meant though..
i said "this time though, there is no hooray rah rah..it's just resolve. ".
i was worried i had no excitement about making healthy choices for myself again and caring about what i put in and did with my body.
now i see that hopefully..it's just cuz i grew up a bit:)
Thanks for your post!