I am not OK with that...
I have been hearing a lot of people saying things to me like "I like to eat whatever I want, I am OK with being overweight. I am OK with that." or "My spouse doesn't care what I look like. I am big and I am OK with that."
I am not OK with that. I want to live. I want to be healthy. I don't want to be super thin or a model...I want to be a person who takes care of her body and gives herself a chance to be what she should be. Healthy.
I want to chase the kids around the yard without feeling like I have ran a marathon.
I want to walk around Six Flags and not be the main attraction by being the huge girl in a swimsuit.
I want to look in the mirror and see someone I know I am.
I want to feel good about myself inside and out.
I was OK with being overweight and being able to eat a huge slice of cheesecake and not worry about what it is going to do to my body. I am not now. I don't want that headache form my sugar skyrocketing through the roof.
I was OK with wearing elastic waist pants. They were comfy. I am not now. I like the way my jeans hug my hips and butt.
I was OK not being able to ride my bike. I have a car. I am not now. I like to feel the breeze in my hair and the burn in my legs.
I was OK with having all the time in the world to play video and facebook games. I am not now. I like not sitting down for hours at a time.
I was OK with being sick and tired all of the time. It meant I got to rest and had an excuse not to go anywhere. I am not now. I love to get out and ejoy the small things in life. Family, friends, church, and vacations.
I was OK with being fat. I am not now. I realize now, that it was killing me.
I am OK with living. I want to live.