Tomorrow starts the new job (yea!) and with it will begin my new commitment (re-commitment) to my healthy eating and exercise habits.
No more excuses. No setting myself up for failure. No more crazy/overambitious hybrids. Just healthy habits from here on out.
So I resolve to:
- Run 3x a week
- Lift 3x a week
- Yoga 1x a week
- Pack my lunch 4x a week
- NOT derail myself on the weekends
- Accept myself (not the way I'll look when I lose another 13 lbs, but the way I am/look/feel NOW regardless of what weight is attached to that state)
After reading Andie Mitchell's "Can You Stay For Dinner" blog, I have been working on mentally coming to terms with the way I look. My brain still sees me as 184 lbs not 154 lbs.
I am happy the way I am.
Okay, fine, I am still working on actually convincing me of this. I have worked very hard to get to where I'm at. I'm by no means done putting in hard work, especially considering what my "ultimate" goals are, but for now I'm happy. I release myself from the constant and looming stress of the "I'm losing weight" burden. From this moment on, I command myself to enjoy life and if the weight does happen to drop, so be it. It is not your mission. It is not your cause. You are here to enjoy life and being so obsessed with losing weight is just a waste of a life, honestly. It is time to live!
I can run with out effort and wear size 4-6 clothes. I'm the same size as my "skinny sister" and I have lots of energy. All of my goals I set when I joined MFP in April 2010 have been reached and exceeded. Setting deadlines to lose "X" lbs by a certain date doesn't seem to be working anymore since I'm so close to my goal. So WHEN (notice I didn't say "if) I reach my goal of 138-140 lbs, it will be great. But for now, I'm happy at 154. I know my hard work has gotten me this far and I'll continue pushing to get to the "finish line." However, I know that what worked to get me to this point will probably not continue working. So I am toning back the running from 5x a week to just 3x a week (speed, short, and long runs) and am going to stick to lifing 3x a week. This notion of less cardio and more lifting seems to be working for others so I'm going to give it another shot. As far as calories go, I really enjoy the zig-zagging that I've been doing so I'll keep this up.
So here is to new beginnings and accepting me the way I am. *raises a big jug of ice water*